No Point

My Chemical Romance is saving my life now. I REALLY listen to MCR's words in their music, interviews, and live concerts on you tube and learn things from them. I also think about suicide but I love life, it's just at that moment when I am really depressed when I want to. I love to read, create things, fashion, collecting rocks and small treasures, I love music, and I love my friends, family and pets. Sometimes I feel like there is no point to my life and that I'm just going to school to go to college to go to work, to support myself and family, then go to a nursing home and waste away my final days. I'm just wasting my life. And I'm too lazy to do anything about it. I have too much routine. This makes me despise myself sometimes. I try to fill my life with music, love, hope, happiness, laughter, friends, family, reading, excitement, and pets. But sometimes nothing can raise my head up out of the endless pit. It has to go away by itself. There is no point to my life