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Forgive me for the excessive detail, but I want to describe what’s happening clearly.

About a month and a half ago I added a girl I knew in high school on FB. And we began to talk, shortly thereafter we started to hang out and for about a month we hung out basically everyday for a while, whether it be going to the park near out houses(we live about 2 min away from one another), or going out to eat or just walking around. I really fell hard for her, but since she had a boyfriend I had no intention whatsoever of acting on those feelings

At the time she had a boyfriend who lived a while away and their relationship was under tension. Eventually they broke up, but still are good friends. And she still goes to visit him occasionally like once a week or so.

I have recently confessed my feelings to her, and she told me that she didn't get out of a relationship to get back into one. Which I understood since she and her BF were together for 2 years, and were very close. However she said she was torn, because she fell for me too. I said that I’d wait for her to be ready or something like that.

We still hang out a lot, although not every day, and we text and chat often. But about a week ago, she told me I should just give up, she doesn't want me to wait for her because it will be a long time before she dates again she says. I told her I will try to respect her feelings and move on. She also told me that her feelings toward me have grown platonic.

She told me that she’s here for me 24/7 if anything is ever wrong, and I told her the same. It just feels like we are a couple, emotionally, yet not so much physically?

When we are out it feels like, to me, that she and I are together and from an outsider’s view we would definitely seem to be. Despite all this I’ve tried to move on.

However I can't, whenever I'm with her I become happy, no matter how bleak the day. And we still hang out a lot. She hasn't acted any different to me over this whole time, and I really feel like if she and I got together it would be really amazing. Just the other night I made it pretty clear that my feelings haven’t faded at all. She didn’t really comment on that though, she let that point hang. She told me she feels really sorry that she’s making me feel this way. She believes we grew too close too fast.

However I’m not really sure what to do. I know I’ve placed this girl on an unrealistic pedestal, but I just have such a good feeling about her. When I’m not with her I just feel an intense longing to be with her, everything else loses the interest I once had for it.

For now I’ve resolved to take things slowly with her, and just be as good a friend I can be with her, but every time we are together it tears me up that we can be so close, yet not in a relationship.

I really love this girl who I have known for 3-4 years. And I am pretty sure she knows I like her. We have even been out together a few times, but she's recently stopped responding to my texts/doesn't answer phone calls. But I see her in class and we still get along like always. I am thinking it means she is hinting she doesn't like me but just wanna be sure? what should i do?