What is "happy?"?
Is there anyone out there who honestly isn't "depressed?"
If it's you, what is it that keeps you going? I know I've got to keep breathing, but I just don't feel like it most of the time.
Please don't tell me to "get help." You go ahead and do it: just tell me what's better about the state of life than not-life. Yes, I've felt euphoria when I helped someone else and they reacted positively, or when I thought I was going to die but didn't; but that's not happiness, and it doesn't last -- and I don't have the energy to keep doing ever-more-dangerous things. The high isn't that great, you know.
Please don't go Baker-acting me; this is not new, and I'm no danger to anyone; it's just been the way I've felt since I started thinking about what life is good for -- decades.
...and if God wants me to be happy, He could make me that way, so don't give me that line.
Yes, I do have feelings. I feel sad when I see others in pain, but I don't feel sad for me -- it's just empty.