How can I possibly...?
Explain to my fiance my random mood swings and spouts of depression (even though I've told him countless of times about them) when he already has these problems in a more severe case and the medicine he's taking only enhances his mental unstableness for other bodily problems he has.. (And sometimes I forget that and don't know when to stop till he snaps.) I can't not be ok around him because he can't handle it. What do I do? I get to the point; like right now to where I just can't take it. I have no one to talk to and I've slowly started to cut again... What do I do? I don't want to leave him because I love him. How can I handle myself and him at the same time? I just took a xanax and smoked a cig to calm down and ended up puking. Nothing came up but my stomach was that unsettled... I can't sleep... I don't know what to do...