I have been having suicidal thoughts. I have seen a psychiatrist and a psychologist, I have been on meds, and it all seems to not be working. I just have a feeling of worthlessness I cant shake. I feel that I will never be loved. Why go on? If you have been in the same situation, let me know how you worked through it. Please serious answers only, I am teetering right on the edge, so please no smart-alec answers. Thanks in advance.
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If you feel you cannot live for yourself, then live to help others. That is the true reason we are here, to care for each other, to take care of each other. We can satisfy our needs by helping fill the needs of others. First you care with all your ability, for anyone you can. Then you will find that you will be loved. Others will start to see how special you are mainly in how different you are. You have to admit that most visitors to this Q & A site are not the brightest bulbs on the chandelier. You have almost a duty to stick around and help these people find their way.
Sometimes it takes more than meds. Sometimes it takes a commitment of shear will power to force yourself into the world of milling crowds, and jabbering people. It is opening yourself up, letting in feelings that you can think about later. Think about the problems of others, yours will diminish in time. It is not a rosy world! And truth to say, no one knows for sure what lies beyond. You can look at in another way, maybe 2012 will be the end of our world as we know it. Stick around and see what happens! Hey, if you are looking into ending it all, just wait for a couple of years and your problem might solve itself.
You might like to read this little bit of hopeful information...Apocalypseofthesoul.com
Lyle
Begin to look for things you would have never thought of becoming involved with.
What would it be like to get fully involved in wood carving, or to master an instrument?
I wonder if I would be any good at cooking. I could go to a culinary school and completely change the course of my life.
Wouldn't it be cool to start working toward an athletic body and to start going on hikes?
Lucky you!! You have the opportunity to completely change your life into whatever you want it to be in the interest of fighting your suicidal depression, and no one would think anything of it!
For instance, if someone who's already happy were to decide they wanted to become the best Koi fish farmer they could possibly be, everyone else would give them a hard time about it and try to tell them they need to focus on something else that will be more lucrative or whatever.
If YOU do it because you need something you think you'll enjoy so that you can fight your depression, then people will back you up!
You have the opportunity to explore any activity/profession and put yourself fully into it and as long as people realize that it's your way out of suicidal depression, they'll back you up!
You have the opportunity to be the best shoemaker, or landscaper, or ornamental wrought iron fence guy, or the guy who designs people's hedges, or long bow archer for competitions at renaissance fairs, or bagpiper (like me).
Make it fully aware to your friends and family how you feel, and that you are making a change in your life purely because you want to do what will bring you the most joy. Let them know your life depends on it and thr sky is the limit!
More importantly than anything else though, really look into the message of the New Testament. Read the Gospels and see the redemption plan God has for all mankind if they will only accept and follow him. If you grew up with the "once saved always saved" mentality then you probably haven't put a lot of effort into growing as a Christian. When you devote yourself to learning the word of God, it becomes more and more relevant to your daily life, and will replace the depression with knowledge of God.
Lucky you! You're not bound down to the hopes and expectations of others anymore! You have a perfect excuse to change your life into something you will enjoy instead of wasting away in some office or shop 8 or 10 hours a day, 5 or 6 days a week. And your family and friends will either understand and back you, or learn to!
Now get to it! There's so much to think about!
Pet store owner, Didgeridoo maker, ice sculpture, sheet-rock installer, tailor, shoemaker....
And Christ should be the core upon which you build your happiness.
Lila
Does your psychiatrist know about the suicidal thoughts? This is extremely important for him to know so that he can treat you correctly. There is a very uplifting site to read that was written by someone who felt just the way that you do. http://www.metanoia.org/suicide. This won't get rid of your depression but will help you see there is more and better to come in your life. You can go to www.//metanoia.org and have online help from others who are suffering like you. There are numbers that you can call that are staffed by professionals who can help you 1-800-273-talk, 1-800-4ACHILD this number is for teens. and 1-800-273-suicide. You are suffering with severe depression and there is help that can change your life for the better.
You can also go to the site nami.org which is the site for the National Alliance for the Mentally ILL. On their site you can find the phone number for you local chapter. They offer help and support and they have the best referrals for help in your area. You may be unable to feel it but you are loved and you are special and those who love you would be devastated for life if you harmed yourself. Please don't give up your search for the right help. If you feel that you really are going to harm yourself you can and should go to your nearest emergency room they can help you>
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1st of all you should try other med's, speak to your psychiatrist 1st but they effect people differently. Its all about finding the right ones for you! I have never been in your situation but my girlfriend has attempted suicide a few times before i met her, this hasn't put me off and we are having a loving relationship( despite the odd bump along the way). she felt she would never be loved to, but that's not the case, you WILL find someone do not give up hope, your thoughts are irrational its just a case of putting yourself out there. if someone likes you they will take the good with the bad so try not to worry, i hope this has helped somewhat!
Ashley
you know, life sucks sometimes. I know the feeling of worthlessness you are talking about. I've been having problems with that myself. try surrounding yourself with people you love the most. Something that actually really helped me what that i got into running. Working out releases endorphins(its also called a runners high) you feel great afterward. No matter what you may think right now, there are going to be people that would miss you so much if you were to "go".