I need very much help | Homosexual problems?
HELP ME PLEASE!
This is scaring me to the point where I can't even sleep, and I'm up all night crying and worrying, and praying for help!
When I was a child, I went to church all the time, prayed, read the Bible, and followed everything, including salvation!! I 100% believe the Bible, and that Jesus is my savior, and everything!
But the problems began when I turned 13, began experimenting with homosexuality (accidentally), and then I stopped going to church, did really bad homosexual things, started masturbating like crazy, skipped school, or would masturbate in the bathrooms at school, had perverted homosexual dreams about my TEACHERS, began to have disgusting thoughts (homosexual thoughts of my brother!), and my teenage years just went straight to HELL!!
I became depressed, skipped school a lot more, and then even threatened to dropout!
My friends all left me when they found out I was gay, and that may me want to turn to homosexuality more!
So then I got really angry at my parents, told them I hated them, and went on to live the most perverted and disgusting life I could live...
I frequently would pray about my situation, asking God to help me!
But then at the same time I spat on his name and would curse him for not helping me!
I frequently mocked other Christians for following such a warped religion that was so hateful towards homosexuals.
And even joked about God and the Bible being of falseness.
I turned into an idiot, and a blasphemer, and sadly, like most other people are now.
Then about 6 months ago, someone invited me to attend church with them. When I was there, I was enlightened to 1 Corinthians 6:9, and became frightened for my life! My entire outlook on life changed, and I repented to the point where I was up an entire night, crying, sobbing, pleading, and begging of forgiveness for every sin had I had done within the last 7 years. All the sins I could remember. All the little sins, the big sins, every sin I did!
I turned away from homosexuality, and returned home to seek help and comforting. I have since been free from all my homosexual and lustful sins for 6 months, and have gone on to live what I believe is the life God would want me to live! I have helped spread the word of God among the homosexual company that I once lived among, and have gotten several to follow God's word!
BUT THE PROBLEM IS!
I am afraid that I might be damned to eternal hellfire, because someone I shared all this information with, told me I was as depraved minded as the citizens of Sodom and Gomorrah, and that it is too late for me, for I have blasphemed God (the unforgivable sin)!!! And that the devil has taken full control of me, and is forcing me to live in delusion, thinking I will get eternity in Paradise, but I will be getting eternity in hell!
I am only 20 years old, and I do not have the fullest knowledge of all things Christian, so obviously I am confused.
PLEASE HELP ME BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!