Break up effects and how to break away?
A little over a month ago my now ex-boyfriend broke up with me. He was the first guy who I could truly say I loved and still do. His reason was that he needed to get closer to God. Yes, he has been pretty much hated for breaking up with me in that way but honestly I can kind of understand. I tried my hardest to argue it out but ultimately felt bad. It was like me vs. God. Fighting a lost battle. Even saying we could both get close to God together. He's totally cut me out of his life and it has been killing me. I still remember all the important dates and I think about him everyday. Its kinda like torture. Every guy I talk to make me feel awkward. Its like I don't even wanna talk to guys at all. I guess my question is how can I break all of this? I'm tired of feeling awkward all the time, thinking about him everyday... I've tried fighting so hard but nothing completely pays off.