Depressed young teen and want help from others who feel like me?

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I missed so many days of school and now I regret it. The reason I am absent all the time is because I am restless, get excruciating abdominal pains that don't go away for hours, and too anxious to attend school. I don't want to start a new day at school feeling overwhelmed, depressed, cranky, etc. I don't really like it when people see me like this. It's hard to control how I feel inside. My emotions go all over the place. I will be happy at first next moment feel suicidal or mad. I don't know why. It may be the rough teen years I am facing. I try to relax and breathe in and out. That method doesn't work for me. I tried yoga, it didn't cure my pain away or relieved my stress and anxiety. Listening to music and walking is what I ENJOY, it's so soothing to the ears when I play my favourite music which takes me to a place like heaven. All alone, peace and quit. It frees my mind from negative thoughts that I always get. I am insecure and it became even worse till I started junior high when I was 12. Now, in high school. I am unhappy there because I don't fit in, it seems. The best years of my life was Elementary and Junior high. I don't want to feel crappy at all. It's unhealthy. My mind is taking over my life. I don't know where my path is leading me. I feel empty, miserable, worthless, helpless, stupid, fat. I wish I could make a friend who understands exactly how I feel and know what I'm going through with this. When I started my first year of high school, I was already bullied on the first day, it didn't end until couples months has passed till the school year ended. Last term, 3 cruel girl teased me behind my back. At home, I have a brother who psychically and verbally abuse me non-stop everyday. I have a mom who calls me fat. I never felt fat until she kept pushing me to lose weight. I know I am a nice, sweet, pleasant person to be around with. Sometimes, I am not like that and I hope that's ok because no one is not perfect, right? I am super shy though, I don't want it to be a bad thing. I wished I could talk to more people. I want someone out there to reach out for me and give me their advise. 


Excuse my grammar! :( Sorry,  I know that I am 16 and sound like a 6 yr old typing this. Please, don't mean about it just want some help. Thanks in advance!

? · Accepted Answer

I can relate. I was talking with two girls I like on FaceBook on tinychat webcam, and I was only using my mic so they couldn't see me. I claimed I left to go get some sprite, but I stayed there anyway for a minute just to see if they'd talk about me - and they did. They started talking about how one of them, her mom thought she liked me but denied it and then they began discussing how ugly I was. My friends call me ugly all the time, but I always thought it was a joke until now...

You know what you need to do? You can't accept yourself. By accepting yourself the way you are, you're accepting your lifestyle. You're constantly called fat? Try and lose weight. That will likely solve a lot of bullying problems. Avoid your brother as much as possible - maybe ask to get a lock on the door to your room or something? Change yourself rather than try and change others. Only accept the things that you have to live with.

Anonymous · Answer

This could be a number of things, but perhaps one of the things you have is Social Anxiety, that would explain the anxiousness when going to school.

There's normally a name for these sort of things, if you can find out what the name of the thing is and do online research on them, it's helpful because you can go and talk to a doctor about things, and he/she might even forward you on to a psychiatrist. (I never did this, but I've known people who had and their recovery was faster than mine, I went it alone)

As for your problems, I can relate to some of the things you've experienced, such as the fear of going to school, and lots of ab sense etc (I'm 20 now but I remember those times). I was also shy (I personally reccommend that you embrace your reserved personality, you're an observer and a thinker when needed, it's a very unique and wonderful trait to have, people secretly admire quiet people).

There are chat rooms/forums online you can find with people who will understand what you're going through, try typing in all the symptoms into Google and browsing around for more answers, it's a good way to find others who know what you're going through or have been through.

Anonymous · Answer

you might want to look into bpd, borderline personality disorder, my gf has it and she can feel on top of the world one second then really depressed and suicidal the next, as far as the bullys at school, **** them! bullys are horrible insecure people who tease people to make themselves feel better, dont put up with it! show them it doesnt affect you and stand up for yourself! i was shy too in highschool and didnt do anything when i was provoked and i regret it now, **** people! no one is going to be fair to you, you have to fight! and as far as your brother and mother, that is horrible to say to your own daughter, you should be honest with her and say how much it hurts you and when your brother says something kick him in the ******* nuts and kick his ***!

Anonymous · Answer

well don't b sweet or pleasant , get attitude , tell them all to fet knotted ,, do something that really makes u feel good and enjoy it!!

? · Answer

hello. what you need to do is set some goals.

hope that helps(it will.)

you have to write them down

Depressed young teen and want help from others who feel like me?

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