I'm sad and empty and he has no idea how much he's hurt me...help?
he's got a gf, but we've been talking long before her. we've been plannng on hooking up for months and we finally got togethr. we told everyone we were going to the movies and we just drove around.he finally parked n in the backseat he fngered me n i gave him a hj. i, love him and he doesn't. he was relly nice and funny before. he would talk about everything. tell me hisfeelings and otherstuff. and then after, and he was driving me home he tells me things like" we just need tobe friends, we need to hang out more and sometime we can drive around again cz its fun talkin to u." and when i told him that i was nervous about everything cuz i thought he was only using me like a hooker, he said no...an his face and tone seemed like he was tlling the truh. this was my frst sexual experienc and he knnows...the first couple days after ws happy and cool with it.but now im sad and empty and i feel horible. hes gota gf, he poably used me and the fact that...i still liked it. i liked it and i on want it to stop and i dontwant him to leave, and i feel horrible because i shouldt have don it but i dontwat it to stop. what am i supposed to do? he has no idea of what i'm feeling...and i want to steer him in the direction of that convo...but he won't text back. wa do i do> please help me, i can't stand this...