He said i was too beautiful for him to be mine so he choose a less attractive girl?
I haven't dated for almost 4yrs now coz am scared of getting hurt & that means i haven't had sex with a guy for almost 4yrs now.There's nothing wrong with my physical beauty or inner beauty. Am very beautiful & a very good person,i've been told a lot & know it myself.Use to be a model & actress,not like international modeling or actress but i did get by & enjoyed it.Am now 35 & got a 19yr daughter but still looks drop dead gorgeous i've been told. Am very confident about my physical appearance but really afraid of getting hurt or falling in love.I finally decided to give this guy that liked me a chance to date me,he's good looking & my type of man but he backed off & stood me up!! He said am too beautiful for him to be mine!!! I was shocked! He choosed a less attractive girl,am sure she's beautiful on the inside coz i hate calling ppl ugly,i really hate that coz beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Am not angry that he choosed her over me,am hurt that he felt i was too beautiful to be his gal,am hurt that he doesn't see my inner beauty & just my physical beauty. He's very insecure about his physical appearance but i don't see nothing wrong with the way he looks coz i find him very handsome & i liked him & still do,i told him all that. I cried 3 days straight cuz i couldn't believe he didn't want me coz he felt i was too beautiful to be his. Made me totally confuse & i just don't know what men want any more. Am still hurt & still cry a lot cuz i just wanna give up on men totally. Just stay single till i die cuz there's nothing i can do about how beautiful God made me in & out. If men can't see pass my physical beauty,then i think it's best i stay single for the rest of my life. I've done it for 4yrs,what's more yrs to come? right? Am independent,got a job,renting my own flat,content with my life,i just do get lonely occasionally which is normal for every singles but sometimes it's so hard,like now. I crave for a man's touch & comfort so badly at times. I really don't know what to do any more. Am feeling so nakedly fragile emotionally these days & very scared that i might be taken advantage of,i feel like a prey for a lot of bad men out there.Am not stupid to fall for bad guy but am just so weak right now. I wish he could come back & say he's sorry but that's too late now.Will i ever meet a man who will love all of me? or am i doomed to spend the rest of my life alone?