I feel horrible about masturbating?
I have been masturbating on and off for several years now since I was about 12. I gave into urges today and I feel absolutely disgusting. Today was very memorable and I don't want to associate today with masturbating. I am so disappointed in myself I really wish I hadn't done it. I don't want to d this anymore I don't care if it feels nice I am sick of feeling disgusting. I feel fake and I hate hiding this from people if my friends knew they would be disgusted. I feel hated and my day has been ruined. :( I cant stand to do this anymore please I need advice I don't want to do this I don't want to go to hell and I want to stop feeling so disgusting.
Thank you.
I usually succeed in ignoring the urges but I am just so freaking ashamed.