Husband doesn't appreciate anything I'm trying to do: What should I do?
I'm currently on maternity leave (returning on the 29th). My maternity leave is unpaid, since I was a contract employee. They are hiring me on as a salaried employee when I return. To help make ends meet, I've been doing freelance work since I started maternity leave. Also, I do some remote work for my primary employer. We have student loan debt and two kids, so doing the extra work is necessary. We moved during the last month, and I organized the move. Also, I try to cook and clean the house while DH is at work.
Here's the issue: he doesn't seem to appreciate it. Generally, he talks/complains a lot about his job when he gets home. I don't mind listening because, well, he needs to get it off his chest and I generally like talking to him. Thing is, don't usually complain when things are stressful with my freelancing, when I didn't get enough sleep because of the kids, etc.
Today, he got upset with me because he was up with our two year old who wouldn't go back to sleep. DH probably got around 5 hours of sleep last night. I would have gotten up with her, but the baby was wanting to be fed and he's not really good at getting the baby to settle. He said that my work "Isn't really hard" like his. (We're both office workers. He's designing a database, and I do technical writing.) He also doesn't really want to watch the kids so that I can go work out a couple times a week. (I watch them so that he can work out.) I've lost all the weight but I have zero muscle tone and feel gross.
Generally speaking, how can I get him to appreciate what I do for us? Should I complain more? I can't just stop working because we would miss the 4000+ per month I've been bringing in.
Eric, I'm bringing in 4K/month freelancing while on maternity leave. It's often more stressful than working a salaried job because the deadlines are rushed. If I wasn't working from home, I wouldn't consider having him get up in the middle of the night during the week. (I was a stay at home mom for the first ten months of our oldest daughter's life.)
I don't need someone to get effusive over what I do. Point is, I don't care to have him tearing me down. He doesn't have to tell me that he appreciates what I do. In fact, until this morning I assumed that he did.