Opiate addiction, withdrawal 4 months later, what is going on?
Last year I was prescribed Norco's, I started abusing them when my bf passed away this february. I tried to get off them twice but w/d was too bad I would take 20-30 yellows a day, . It got to the point where I was so depressed over my bf's death and the fact I couldn't stop taking pills i thought about suicide, I went to detox at the behavioral center @ the hospital. I was there for 6 days, they had me on suboxone (i've tried before, but wasn't ready to quit back then) Right after I got out of the hospital I could go days without having to take a suboxone, no cravings, no restless legs (which is the worst for me). 2 weeks after getting out of the hospital i would get withdrawals. My dr wrote me a script for 14 suboxone when I got out, those lasted me forever, and I was never able to get in to see my doctor, so i gave up on getting an appt. My friend went thru the detox too, around the same time i have, she goes to her dr and she will give me a suboxone every once in a while (i know it's not the best idea). I could cut up the film in TINY strips, one little strip and i would be withdrawal free for a day or two, so the suboxone would last me a while, but when I had none I would go right back to feeling the symptoms. this week will be 4 months since i've taken a pill. i'm frustrated because i'm doing the right thing, no cravings to touch a vicodin ever again, i've gone to counseling and i'm happy, but why am i still experiencing withdrawals? yes they aren't as bad as they were in the beginning, but it's scary, will i ever be withdrawal free? IDK if i would even be able to get into a suboxone dr because i'm not technically on pills, i just still experience the uncomfortable symptoms. are they suppose to last this long? i'm just looking for advice !
I was suppose to go to fairbanks, but because I was kinda suicidal they told me to go to the behavioral center, which was not fun. About a day after my last tiny strip of suboxone i will experience all of the symptoms, just not as severe as it was in the beginning. it's depressing, drug free for 4 months and still miserable.
Chas, I am worried it's mental, I try not to think about it but as each day passes it gets harder. when i do take a suboxone, i cut the strips up into pieces so little, i don't ever get a high off of them, I use to when I would take half a film back in may when i tried to quit before. I'm trying to stick it out, i'm scared of going to a methadone clinic or getting a full suboxone script cause it will just be another habit to kick, and a way to put money in the dr's pockets.