I can't move on after bad golfing?
I'm a junior in high school and this is the first year on my school's golf team. I have golfed in the past and I wasn't terrible but not good either. Yesterday we had our first meet and I was golfing #6 on varsity. (we don't have a good team at all). I completely sucked, and I mean SUCKED. I shot an 86 on 9 holes...awful. My friend who hasn't golfed in two years shot a 57 on his first round in a couple of years. Anyways, afterwards and still now, I feel like absolute crap for playing like that. I've golfed in the summer quite a bit when I'm not playing baseball. I should've done way better than that. Right afterwards I went off by myself and spoke to no one because I was too ashamed of myself and how I did. I got just a few hours of sleep because I kept thinking about it. In school today I couldn't concentrate because that's all I've been thinking about. I feel like I'm driving myself crazy but I've always been this way. I'm always extremely hard on myself and put myself down as much as possible and some many situations. I am still thinking about it but I can't help it. I feel like all my confidence that I had going into golf just went away and I want to quit the team so bad. I don't think I'll get much better because my problem was hitting the ball. Sometimes I hit the ball, sometimes I don't and at the meet was one of the cases when I couldn't hit. If I do hit it it's not good. What can I do to move on from this because I like golf or used to like it, now I feel like I want to break all my clubs and throw them away so I never have to see them again. Please help me!