Why does the word girl make me feel weird?
Okay so I’m a 15 y/o teen, born female into an lgbtqia+ phobic family.
I currently don’t know how I identify I feel like a girl maybe but this is what feels weird. I got a really sweet shirt that says ‘this girl runs on tea and musicals’ it’s also pink. And the way it says girl on it makes me feel kind of off and I used to like pink a lot but now it feels eh or yuck. I’m currently wearing it and it makes me feel weird and a bit off? I have a friend who is non-binary and they shared with me a bit about their experiences and it feels kind of similar. Like wondering why gender is such a big deal to everyone and a desire to not wear girl’s clothes too much occasionally I do enjoy some “girly” things.
Please help
I’m in full on shut down mode about this I’ve spent my whole day thinking about this and distracting myself with reading. I’m worried I might not be who I always thought I was but it’s also exciting to maybe find a better way to be me