Is it a final ending?or the secret of a new begining?

me and this guy have been dateing for over a 1yr. and recently my parents have informed me that they do not respect the fact that he will be turning 18 in june and that i am still 15.

so they said that we have too break up and they are nt gonna allow us to be together until i turn 18. recently, my dad does nt allow us too tlk as much as we use too and we havent seen eachother in over a week.

we have planned to stay together and pretend like we broke up to my parents but we really havent.

and we would be with eachother for the rest of this yr. and his senior yr. and then when he goes to his freshmen yr. college i would be a senior and 18.then we can say we got bk together but we actually stayed together.....

during this secret relationship we were gunna pretend we were just friends and hang out once in a while and we would see eachother at skool all the time.

butim starting to think that maybee that is nt the best thing to do, because it will be too hard to keep a secret and i am also jepordising my parents trust.

as well as in a way i want to get out and get to kow knew ppl.

me and him have had many disagreements and we are know just a plain couple it is so many blank and mixed confusing emotions between us too.

but everytime i try to leave him i keep going bk because i am scared to be alone and i do care for him alot....but i dnt see himputting the same effort in our relationship as i do and that bugs me....

so should i stay in a relationship with him and keep it a secret????

or

should i build a friendship with him and wait to see what happens later when i turn 18????