How do I deal with this, and what is it? (Girls please, or guys I guess: This is going to be graphic)?

Okay: I asked a question four weeks ago saying that I was wondering why I had had a lot of cramps and overactive hormones, but had not had a period, and I thought I might be psychologically stopping myself from having one due to some repressed memories relating to my mother and hemorrhaging, I finally had one now, but I think I might be having some troubles with my ovaries. This is my first period and this is what has been happening: in graphic detail.

Monday: After a family party I woke up in the morning and had a lot of blood, it got on my bed and on the floor in the bathroom and I had lots of clots and TONS of blood, I'm guessing I lost about a teaspoon overnight and that morning. By the end of the night it had not slowed down at all and I was going through a lot of pads. That night I had to get up at three to change my pad because it had soaked through and then I had to sleep on the couch because my sheets were dirty from it. I used an extra thick, overnight pad, which should have lasted longer.

Tuesday: My blood was thick in the morning, I began to pee nothing but blood, every time I sat down I could feel it coming out of me, and I began to have HUGE clots. Eventually I was unable to stand up because it would rush out of me, splattering kind of, like I dropped a jug of koolaid.

Wednesday: I had a friend come stay over to help me out, and I began to have less clots and just change my pads every one to two hours if I was lucky, it stopped randomly rushing out of me and changed to a constant trickle. I had to get up twice during the night to change my pad.

Thursday (today): I have learned how to deal with this a bit better, but I am still at a heavy flow. Now, I've learned how to sit and stand so that I don't feel it as much, but I am still very heavily flowing. I have had tons of clots of blood almost every time I go to the washroom, ranging from tons of little dime sized ones to one huge one, the size of a small prune.

I read up on this thing called menorrhagia, heavy periods that hits women in menopause and girls who have just started having their periods (menarche). I think I could have a light version of it, but I don't have all the symptoms (yet). My mother had the same problem, and so did her sisters. My mother says to just deal with it but it's so uncomfortable.

I've been focusing on showering often, wiping and keeping myself clean down there, and trying not to get upset, but I've been bursting into tears and being very edgy. It's my first one, and I've tried to keep calm and deal with it just like my friends, but it's honestly affecting me. It's very uncomfortable to move, my vaginal muscles feel weak, I've lost way more blood than average, I have KILLER cramps, and that much blood has made it messy and disgusting. It's gotten on my bed, my hands, all over my legs and I haven't been doing anything but sitting.

I just keep cleaning myself, wiping, putting on the thickest pads I can find, using baby wipes, showering and cleaning myself more. If I sit still it gets all over me, If I move I can feel it coming out and the pad rubs against me, I can't use a tampon and I can't try with that heavy of a flow.

How the hell do I deal with something like this? I'm trying to tell myself it's not that bad, but the other girls change their pads every six hours, and if I'm lucky I can only make it two. There's just so much blood. It isn't normal, but other than feeling tired from it I don't think I'm actually sick. I think it may have just built up.

How do I deal with this? How?