idk if im really ready to make things normal again with my dad?

I can tell just by reading this that you want to work things out, and by the sound of it with the card and what he said he must want that too. He may not be the best dad (cheating is never a good thing) but if he really is trying I think you should let him know that you still love him and want to work it out but that he has a lot to make up for for not being there and for tearing your family apart. He can't just expect to walk right back into your life after that and you to accept it like it is.. he should understand your feelings. Maybe try talking to him about it and if he doesn't even try to hear you out then just tell him that if he's not going to try then its not going to work out. You only have one father tho, you need to stick in there.. good luck.

Things will never be normal. Do not look backward, look forward. You do not reconcile to the family all at once. You reconcile one person at a time. You reconcile when you want and you need not accept every invitation to reconcile.

Trust must be earned; you must give your trust only a little at a time.

Your first step must be to forgive yourself of everything you feel guilty of because of the breakup. Just because nothing is your fault does not mean that there is not guilt and a need to be forgiven by yourself.

You should get to the point where you do not care about the people that hurt you. Hating or anger creates ties to people that are best broken. Only when you are completely over your old relationships should you consider forging new ones. Do it one person at a time, little by little. If you sense insincerity or are hurt again, cut things off; wait a year or two; and then decide whether or not to start again.

You don't need them. You are complete by yourself. You have a whole life ahead of you that will bring you peace and happiness. Let go of the past.

You don't need to jump right back into his life right away. Take it one step at a time. Go out to lunch with him, then an activity, and let it build from there.

my life is just that wat as well and the best thing to do is to just close contact with your father because he is just going to keep hurting you. and its not going to get any better. i dont see my dad any more and its been a year since the last time i saw him. and im better off with out him.. sure you can see him later when your an adult or you can srive yourself to him..