I think of killing i dream of dieing it all feels right why? why? why?

I'm not a shrink, but I think you're not as all bent as you may think you are. This stuff bothers you and that's not a small deal. You feel like this stuff is horrible and wrong which is how you should feel , so you shouldn't worry about talking to a professional about it. You may not need a shrink, since they like to prescribe and fix problems with drugs, you would probably benefit more from a psychologist or social worker. Talk honestly about these thongs and whatever else may be bothering you. Try not to hold too much back from them. You'll probably find that all this stuff is due to something else goiing on in your life. It could be something as disconnected as Video games or tv shows you watched when you were younger. These are some stressful times so don't be too hard on yourself . As I said it's knowing the difference between right and wrong that's the real issue and you're still on the right side of that line. Needing help figuring these things out is nothing to be ashamed of. Hope you get some pro help soon. Good luck.

It does seem very unusual and out of the ordinary I must admit, just make sure its only your dreams that your doing this and not real life! lol. But yea on a more serious note, I would advise getting in touch with a psychiatrist / doctor, just to see if they can advise why you are experiencing these thoughts and dreams. Hope this helps, don't worry about it too much, i'm sure there's a relatively normal explanation for it, somewhere.

maybe if you try to do more happy things during your day, like go on a bike ride, or hang out with friends. Do something productive to take your mind off of things so maybe when you go to sleep you can not focus on those morbid things.

i think that maybe u should get a councilor if u really feel like dieing is right. Talk to someone about it and u might feel alot better to just get it out. if u r thinking about suicide then i would call Ur local doc.