Emotional/Sexual numbness after coming out?

I came out two months ago, and ever since then, I've not been myself. I started to feel really numb, like I didn't feel any immediate attraction to men like I used to feel (before I came out). I mean, I am still, but those sparks or butterflies that you feel when you look at someone you're attracted to are being blocked. I felt so deeply attracted to men before I came out, and now, it's diminished so much. I am a naturally sensitive and emotional person (for example, I sobbed/bawled my eyes out at the ending of the very first Pokemon movie, then felt super self-conscious afterwards), but during the years I was in the closet, I suppressed a lot of pain and isolation, and it's as though this wall of inhibition is barricading me from moving forward. Maybe it's because I haven't found an outlet for expressing all of the hurt and sadness, and partly because I haven't legitimately cried in a very long time, and I also have trouble crying at all. I guess I'm having trouble because I feel so vulnerable when I do that my mind stops me from it. I feel like I'm one really long, hard, emotional cry away from feeling myself again. It's weird, it's almost as though I can physically feel this wall pushing against my skull. Can anyone relate to this? Does anyone have any ideas why this might be happening?