cant take this pain anymore?

Mother to Son

By Langston Hughes

Well, son, I'll tell you:

Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

It's had tacks in it,

And splinters,

And boards torn up,

And places with no carpet on the floor—

Bare.

But all the time

I'se been a-climbin' on,

And reachin' landin's,

And turnin' corners,

And sometimes goin' in the dark

Where there ain't been no light.

So, boy, don't you turn back.

Don't you set down on the steps.

'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.

Don't you fall now—

For I'se still goin', honey,

I'se still climbin',

And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

if you hate it so much why are you so scared of death, because you don't actually hate it, and there is a background story to your depression, you are just showing others faults for your depression, people may hate you or judge you but you got to realize you are better than that, but if you can never realize that and can never except the fact that shiiiit happens, well you'll be like every other hypocrite in the world, a paranoid asssshole who thinks the world will end, it won't. Get over your little problems seriously depression is a small problem, I WOULD KNOW I have manic depression. I'm medicated, you should be too unless you believe to not get medicated or treated for your illness, in technical terms you are mentally insane (by governmental terms) I am too, I got bipolar depression and anger issues along with anxiety, but in the past 4 months I've became more mentally healthier, because I did things I'd never do got on a plane and went to vegas for a week, and I got a tattoo. Two things I thought i'd never do. I did it and well I'm about 75% better. so get over yourself, if you end your life you'll hurt your family even if they "hate" you, seriously you'll hurt more people than anything. I would know because I thought about it more times than you, and I am likely older than you, I'm 22, been like this since I was a child, I stopped wanting to die at 17, so in technicality terms it was 11 years that I wanted to die, from the age of only 6 to the age of 17, I wanted to die. people say kids don't want to die, in all honesty if a kid is majorly depressed and parents or family don't pick it up but teachers do but they say nothing, yeah pretty much the child is effed up for life.

What do you believe in yourself? Do you believe that they are truly right. Look for the answers within. Do you honestly believe you are so messed up that you can't find your way out. Start writing about your feelings and why you think no one cares...Take a good look at yourself...The positives as well as the negative. Or is it just your state of mind.. Call lifeline, Redcross, or any help centres Beyond Blue. Talk to them. They may just have the help you need. To get through this. It is up to you to look for one little thing in your life that is positive and focus on that. I do hope this helps...

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Suicide leads to Hell, but Christ leads to Heaven. Pray, and read the Bible. Then, your soul will be saved and you will have eternal life in Heaven.

start acting positive number 1

and go out there and get an education and things will change