I don't like seeing my psychologist?

He thinks depressed. I told my friends last night after I came back and we all broke out laughing. He says it's because I'm apathetic. His biggest two points are that I'm not taking a very big part in signing myself up for homeschooling (I made the decision to do it, and I picked my classes, I'm just not taking part in the actual signing-up) and that I quit going to school for over a few weeks.

I've told why I did that, I think he just doesn't understand how important my decisions are to myself and why I don't think my current guardians have the right to try and control them by taking away things I already posess, which is what spurred my dropping out. It's also been the same punishment over and over again for the past two and a half years and it's yielded no noticable results or affects on my grades, which have been dynamic but not directly correlating with my punishment at all. Basically, it frustrates me that they continues to do it for no logical reason and of even more importance is that I know exactly what grades I'm getting when I'm getting them and I make the decision consciously. I will not be punished for that. He thinks I'm apathetic. I've had to hold laughter in at multiple times during our two sessions.

He also thinks I'm angry at people, specifically my mother and him durring our sessions. I only feel dissapointment in people, frustration at situations, and I know he's only doing his job. Honestly, I think it's because I don't like going and I sit there, aloof to the conversation, giving simple one-word responses. He's also said my words don't match my actions, or what he percieves them to be, but I've been sitting there with an indifferent vibe since the second appointment, and he does say I'm apathetic, right? How are my words and his opinion of me any different? That makes me doubt his ability. By the way, I'm 14 and apparently that means I'm incapable of understanding anything about life, like the fact that if I continued to skip I get sent before a judge for truency. Oh, really? I thought I could sit on my *ss and nothing would happen! That was sarcasm. Please, someone give and educated answer on what I should do in my . . . situation?

I've told my grandmother I don't want to go, I understand myself and I probably sound narcissistic and pretentious in all this but I promise you I'm not, I'm just tired of it. All of it. I bet I wouldn't be in half as bad a situation if everyone just stayed nuetral and let me do my own thing. And don't just credit all this to me being a hard-headed, rebeling teen that wants interdependance. I want to be inderdependant on myself but it's not just because I'm a teen, it's who I am, my ideals. If I look back and I think I made bad decisions I'll know who chose them, myself. It makes accountability a lot more clear cut, doesn't it?

I really hope I didn't type all this for nothing.