I just wanna fall away?

Sounds like apathy (indifference or learned helplessness) due to depression, it's an illness that steals your enthusiasm, passion, motivation and energy, makes you not care about the consequences, tells you there's no hope, you're no good and that you need to die.

Depression and apathy are a package deal. Hypothyroidism or hyperthyroidsim can mimic the symptoms of apathy and depression, can also be a symptom of bipolar or Asperger's Syndrome.

Depression is a liar.

Cognitive behavioral therapy has an 80-90% full recovery rate with depression.

I don't know your situation but please don't kill yourself. You have no idea how much it breaks my heart to hear about suicides and write papers in English about suicide and the stories behind them. Whatever your dealing with you never know if it will get better if you end it here. If something you know is wrong then speak up about it. Talk to someone or understand what is causing you to feel this way. There is someone out there, even if you don't think there is, that would miss you. I really do hope you get through this and remember you are not ever alone. <3

seek professional help.

please.

cutting is not the answer, death isn't either.

i suffer from clinical depression --- i see my psych often ------- he helps me so much.

there is much to live for -- sometimes it's hard to see it.... but it's there!