Miss my aunt :( depressed?

Ok, so my aunt and my grams and cousins all live in Cali (LA) and I live in massachusetts. All the freakig way across the country. I recently visited my aunt alone for Christmas/winter break and we got close. Really close. We always were, but this is different. We're the only girls of the family on my dads side besides my grandma, so we have this special relationship. I stayed at her house for 3 weeks, and had so much fun with her. I love her so much it's not even funny and I have always had a really hard time saying goodbye. To anyone. Before visiting, the last time I saw her was 2 years ago. I don't get to see her a lot. It breaks my heart, but it's not a perfect world, so I figured I would have to deal with it. But What I'm feeling now is just... So painful. I left LA 3 days ago and all I've been able to do is cry. I can't even put it into words. Im just curled up under a pile Of things she gave me sobbing like a baby. I can't help it. I miss her like hell already. I miss everything about her. ( sorry for the language ) I hide my feelings from everyone so I can't talk.I don't know what to do. I haven't eaten anything. I keep dreaming about her and us hugging and walking together and other mushy stuff. I don't know what the frick is wrong with me. I have never ever missed anyone so much. Ever. I don't know what to do. I don't know the next time I will see her and I have a life to live and I need to get out of this hole Iv dug myself I to. Sorry for the ranting.

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