I dont know what to do with myself?

I hate my life. To my parents culture abuse is discipline. I have been "disciplined" for as long as i can remember. My siblings also have took part in beating me too. They would punch my head when i was younger. One of them stop hitting me but his verbal abuse hurts more. Today my older brother was being annoying and messing around with my younger brother. Yesterday my little brother got beat senseless because of how my brothers teach him to act. I was telling him to stop so he got some swiffer broom and hit me with it. When my other brother came down he said its my fault and he snapped saying im a ***** and im the reason my brothers get in trouble. My parents came down and screamed saying they dont want to see me so weak and crying.

I dont have the heart to self harm or commit suicide. You people will say call child services but its not easy, im not that lucky to be saved from what i go through