Help is there anyone like me what do I do?

I'm a 15 year old boy. Recently I've been questioning myself I haven't felt...me. I'm biologically male, I've identified as a male and I've always known I've been less masculine than other boys but things have been more prominent recently. I'm starting to feel more feminine, and even act more feminine when I'm alone. But I'm scared. I can't date straight girls because on the inside psychologically and behavior wise I'm a girl, not the girliset one ever but still. I can't date lesbians because on the outside I look like some stupid white trash boy. So I'm not pretty. Is there anyone out there that is like me because I know many people and I'm the only one I know of like this. I don't want to fix myself but I don't want to be alone. I guess a general summation of any category I fit into is bigender lesbian