What if you messed up worse then anybody at this point in time 12/2013?

What if you messed up worse then anybody at this point in time 12/2013?

And you come to the gross relization that your life you have tried and givin it your best, and you knew the importance the pride the exceptence if you succeed, but did not? You tried and tried again only to fail? At a point in your life you decide to do what you can do? Now at this point in time it all seems to be fun but the area that was once black and white has turned into grey. You laugh at things as you did before, but now you know your future is very much on the stop watch? Not like other situations? Becuase the people you deal with are famous and were famous. AND YOU JUST KNOW LIKE NO OTHER TIME. Like a youtube video of someone singing before they leave earth so hurtful but it gets so many hits. Only your writing it down on yahoo answers?

There's no actual problem if you go to a grocery store and see a name of a store clerk and that reminds of someone you knew in highschool and you know there just a phone call away but decide not to give when they are in need when you were friends. Its not christmas you don't have to allocate for anything other then yourself? RIGHT? And thats ok?