Looking for a romantic manga where the main girl has been through something very traumatic..?

So yea... for some reason I want to read a manga where the main girl has been through something traumatic.. like maybe rape or seeing someone die or gotten attaced... And she falls in love but has problems because of her trauma...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Ps. I DO NOT want to see a main pushover! I BLOODY HATE when the character just bends and lets people trample all over them... I have read a few with characters like these and when the character just takes it and doesn't speak up i just sit there gritting my teeth and.... I just hate it soooooo much!!!

So thats mainly what i want.. ~~~!!!!!BUT!!!!!~~~ if you don't know of any manga like these or have others you think i may enjoy then you are moooooore than welcome to tell me ^^

Here are some mangas i love (not like, LOVE):

- Suki desu Suzuki-kun (can't wait for the nex chapter!! looooove it)

- Beast Master (It is just sooo cute!!! <3 Leo is one of my top 5 fav anime guys *the only manga character in the list*)

- Reimei no Arcana or Time's Arcana OR the Arcana of time (also waiting for this.. Love the idea!!)

- Kyo koi wo hajimeru (Tsubaki is a bit of a pushover and i did get a bit annoyed sometimes, but it got better and better^^)

- Red River (It wasn't as good as the others but i really liked the fact that Yuuri doesn't just sit back, she takes control.. well sometimes she's just recless too but she does whatever she can to fight. She's strong and doesn't let people walk over her as long as she has anything to say.. ofcourse there are a few times because of her status but it's the kind of moments where you don't get mad at HER but the person that's "walking all over her")

(And if you love romance manga and haven't read these the YOU WILL MISS OUT ON SOME REALLY GOOD MANGA IF YOU DON'T READ THESE!! :D