I like cutting myself and watching myself bleed????

I agree with Rebecca. You might want to look into an impulse control disorder, such as intermittent explosive disorder (IED). IED is very much treatable through proper therapy, if you do feel that you're ready to seek treatment for this. It sounds as though it's getting quite out of hand, so I'd suggest that you give it some thought.

Intermittent Explosive Disorder.

Sentence again!

In such critical situations and dire circumstances, you should not feel shy or hesitant. Your Lower Self should seek proper guidance from your Higher Self to solve such genuine problems.

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There are two self's; the higher and the lower self. The higher self is human spirit clothed with soul, made in the form of God. The lower self, the carnal self, the body of desires, is a reflection of the higher self, distorted by the murky ether of the flesh. The lower self is an illusion, and will pass away; the higher self is God in man, and will not pass away. The higher self is the embodiment of truth. The higher self is justice, mercy, love and right; the lower self is what the higher self is not. The lower self breeds hatred, slander, lewdness, murders, theft, and everything that harms; the higher self is mother of the virtues and the harmonies of life.

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Discover how true passion can be tamed.

If you like watching yourself bleed, that's not normal. Go to your nearest psychological centre so they can deal with your condition.

U r weak to these anger outbursts... which they feel awful (Nobody wants to feel overwhelming rage)... and u arent in control of these anger outbursts .... which is what makes u feel week and overwhelmed by them... the cutting is a RELEASE of the anger/energy/emotion... and you ARE in control of it... it gives u the power... the power to control your emotions. That may sound messed up, but that is why I like it... and probably why u do too.