Lesbian relationship problem help...?

I'm a girl, who was in a relationship with a girl. This was my first time being in one with someone of the same gender. My family didn't and cannot find out. My father is a preacher of a church, and everything that comes out of their mouth is how being gay is extremely wrong. Anyway, we have managed to keep this a secret. My friends know, and everyone knows. Except my family. Rumors have flown around and have gotten back to my sisters but they didn't believe them. Well, I made many mistakes and treated her wrong and she broke up with me about 2 months ago. We haven't officially stopped contact with eachother until two days ago because we were going to work it out instead of being FWB like we had planned. But.. I messed up again.. And she tells other people she still cares and she can't live without me and she can't go on without me but she's tired of fighting and this time she's really done but I can't feel anything without her... I need her... She helped me and I helped her.. All I'm wondering is if there's a chance we'll be able to work it out soon.. And if maybe she still loves me? I can't talk to her because im blocked on everything..so are my friends