I cant tell my parents nothing and sometimes it makes me sad?

Sometimes i get sad i dont have that bestfriend bond with my Mom Im 16 & i wish i'd had that . I mean She doesnt work late anymore , so thats not the problem i guess idk. For heaven sake she wasnt even the one who told me about periods it was my grandma. Also my mom Gets over protective when i hang out with friends sometimes Like Common ! I mean i admit i made mistakes in the pass and gave my parents reasons not to trust me with boys but idc about boys. Right now ! My Mother is the type of mom that if i do something bad like smoke or drink i get my phone taken away and hit witha belt sometimes -.. How the hell am i suppose to trust my mom or share secrets or anything if she goes straight to hitting Me with the belt. I never talked to her about shaving ,makeup , body weight, Nothing . Im probably not making sense right now its just Im. just really down.... Its night time & im just down rn