Problem with tampons!!! Please help me?

Ok so first I am a 14 year old and I've had my period for almost a year now. I'm going to high school in a few months and I'm still wearing pads. I really think pads are messy and smell bad, and I really hate that gush everytime I move, stand up , cough, laugh, sneeze, pretty much anything. So I started looking into tampons. On my first period, I was already tired of the gush so I asked my mom to buy me tampons. When I was inserting it , it didn't hurt. But about 5 minutes later I felt something wet . I checked and turns out it leaked. I asked my sister what was wrong and she said it's not in far enough. So I went to the bathroom and tried to take it out. And when I say it hurt BADLY. Ever since then, I've been scared to use them. Time and time again I try and try but I just end up wasting them, because I get really scared. Now I'm just fed up with being scared and I'm tired of pads so I just bought tampons(regular). I went to the bathroom and started to put one in. I did not feel it at all, but I barely put it in. I threw away the tampon and put on a pad;((( Everytime I try to put in a tampon I chicken out. I'm scared it will hurt to out in. I'm also scared it'll hurt to take out or I'll get TSS someone plz help with my fear.

also sorry for the long message!!!