do you feel oppressed by society and its expectations?

i like to make music that i hope will one day outlive me.. I work on making beats and studying music theory 6-12 hrs a day most days .. but it puts a strain on my relationships and i feel like i have less time to work on my music than i would otherwise.. now i know im going to have to give up on this for a while and spend more time on logical goals studying for a career.... bc my income is going to cause me to lose the girl that i love.... but it always feels like something is missing in my life without having the time to do what i want to i feel i will never get another chance in this world to make something that will outlive me.

I guess it is true that a pyramid is built from the top down... if it is meant to be i will have to find a way otherwise i will not be successful... the most difficult part is not knowing.... but still having the drive to keep going. will i spend my life trying to have the time to do what i do now?