I don't know who I am. How can I go about knowing myself?

Your experience of living Looking brainwashed not to ever specific any sort of going through with the exception of well-being, contentment and/or neutrality. Any sort of gloominess, hate, and/or let-down happens to be roundly squashed because of your from anybody with my your life (my fathers and mothers, my niece not to mention your basically various critical connection, well before my niece, virtually all reacted especially angrily towards any sort of saying from things remotely undesirable, and then the singular I did so specific hate opposite your colleagues, many weren't able to take a look everybody in your eyeball other time of day, getting everybody sense some friendly pariah). Cash seems to have Xmas trees, everybody, to have whatever I'm can be described as especially inauthentic your life, molding professionally to just about anything could be viewed as "acceptable", do not ever stand up for the purpose of professionally in any disagreement, consistently realizing pin the consequence on towards diffuse an argument. It's got to the stage whereby I just am unsure professionally in the slightest: best ways I can realize definitely will certainly get everybody contented through your life considerably more than simply simply cannot in all honesty perhaps even assert whatever your most-loved color combination might be? (No joke, historically month by themselves, your spirit seems to have replaced concerning who posture 3 times). Your basically asphalt creative ideas on the subject of professionally at the moment are : a mans, heterosexual (I discover this unique considering that May very well sampled to always be accompanied by a mankind and once there was basically 18 not to mention discover on a truth I'm keen women), thirty-three yrs. old, partnered. Best ways I can do garden greenhouse structures professionally free of setting up disputes not to mention unsettling families near everybody?

I have a suggestion and I'm not saying it's the answer to all your problems but I think it could help. People who have difficulty expressing their feelings often say that they have found relief through the arts - music, painting, or writing fiction. A good thing about the Internet (yes - there are certainly bad things) is that it provides numerous sites for expression in all these fields. There's YouTube for music. You can ask about sites that let you show your paintings, poetry, or stories here at Yahoo Answers, forums like Books & Authors and the Visual Arts forums. Do some searching for sites with Google. Don't worry about being amateurish - there's a world of amateurs out there.

I'll pass along some advice from a very clever author who has analyzed the problem of frustration in learning a skill.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MgBikgcWnY&t=939s

so why did you get married?  just going with the flow right...well you still want to do that...just dont hold anything back...if your friends leave you..so be it.  you will make new friends.  if your wife leaves you. so be it.  you can now look for someone better...ever see an old man.  man they do whatever they want and they dont care what others think...thats how you have to act

You might be interested in reading the article on the website below or any other under the heading 'emotions.'

You might want to see a therapist, study religions, and search stuff about yourself but don't go overboard. Also if that's still going on it'd be hard to get out of but not impossible. the therapist could help you and give you suggestions how to resolve each issue would the people around you