How can I make it anymore clearer that I am not her son?

just talk to her about it

Suicide ? Life is short anyway death will come soon enough, I'm sure you are hurt but I sense spite as well, hurt can be coped with in life you should learn how cause there is nobody worth doing suicide over , take control back, you gave this person to much control over you to make you want suicide, they control you, take it back and don't do suicide at least try not to , and the choice is yours but try not to ( this is not an answer just my opinion I hope it helps)

It is BEYOND FOOLISH for someone with your mental health history to post, "either she commits suicide or I commit suicide."  Speak to your therapist.  I believe you are seriously disturbed and dangerous to the community.  To quote you:

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1 - "I am currently a patient with this mental heath organization. Mercy Mental Health. (Wyndham Clinic) Phone number. +61 3 8734 1550 (8AM - 3PM AEST) Patient name Jan Harmond Dacion. Please do not complicate my situation by telling them any other problems I don't have, as I am trying to get a 2nd opinion that will show I have no mental illnesses that will then allow me to start a career. Don't take away my life. ."   https://kiwifarms.net/threads/jan-harmond-dacion-y... - 

2 - “Is there any way to redeem myself for this mortal sin (I murdered someone by encouraging him to commit suicide)? ... I had told a homeless 21-year-old kid, who was unloved by his parents, had no money and who was jealous of everyone, to go kill himself which he did."  14456AACaFqj“Tell them to STFU, to get a job or kill themselves. I once made a homeless 21-year-old effeminate guy kill himself by telling him to end his own life. :(“ https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20190...

IN THE MEANTIME, SPARKY, MOVE OUT OF HER HOUSE.  I can't imagine anything more pleasurable than you NOT talking to me for two weeks.  I DO like the part where you won't eat the food she cooks.  AGAIN, SPARKY, MOVE OUT.

Who told you that you have the power to control other people?  I ask because they lied, you don't have that power.  You only have the power to control yourself.  So all the denial in the world doesn't change anything.  If you commit suicide you will hurt your entire family horribly ... your friends too.  You aren't easing that fact at all.

And your claim that your life is ruined is more BS you are telling yourself.  I am not denying you are in pain, just that you are dwelling on that pain instead of trying to overcome it.  That is the mental trap of depression.  When depressed you can only focus on the negatives of life, and can't think of the positives even if they are staring you in the face.  For example you claim to be hurt by your Mother's neglect, but are ignoring how she is focused upon talking to you and cooking for you and you aren't letting her.  You are a walking contradiction if you want to die because you didn't get enough attention, but refuse it when it is offered.

What do you do?  That is the hard part, because it is the last thing you want to do.  You have to ask for help. Mom may in fact be the best person to ask.  Good Luck.

As someone who survived the suicide of a family member, I suggest that you get some therapy from a reputable mental health provider as your thinking is ... not right.

Your family members will be devastated and forever changed by your suicide.

Certainly not with language like yours that blatantly defies the rules of English and so only serves to make what you say unclear.