I sent a friend request to facebook of a beautiful woman, what should I do, is it really a good idea that I I have a girlfriend ?

I am a man 38 years old and she is 30 years old, she is a bass player, I am a failed bassist she likes gothic metal, she likes to dress in black, she practices witchcraft and Satanism, but that does not matter to me, nor does it scare me, she does not have a boyfriend, but she still does not confirm my request Of friendship, I am diabetic, I have a rotten stomach, I cannot have sex, I do not have an erection or orgasm, I have depression and anxiety, and my parents do not accept any woman, she will ask me why I do not bring her to my house? How can you see there are many problems that I can do ? she will not understand me or support me in any of my problems.