what should I do?

I am just really not happy anymore and I've lost my hope. I feel so disappointed at how my life turned out. This past year stupid 20/20 I lost everything in the same week. Due to the pandemic, I lost my job and then I gave in to move it back in with my child's father when I've been on my own for five years because I was about to be evicted. I had to rehome my dog my daughter lost her after-school program resource due to the school closures.  I'm not at all attracted to my child's father, I find him physically unattractive and also his personality is just awful. I miss my dog, my place, my Independence, and the life I had when I was not with him.  I admit this sounds silly and shallow, but my dream type physically is someone like Zac Efron...