Is it true that suicidal thoughts  means you don't wanna commit suicide?

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This is not true. The video below starts with a series of questions a psychiatrist asks about suicidal thoughts. It has a number of useful things including a safe hotline - no one will bother you if you call. The video is part of a 4-part series for suicide prevention. Advice about depression in my answers a and you can click on my name and read. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1yBXl81QPyY

It could mean that.

Most people, in my opinion, will go so far as to contemplate suicide, but very few will act on those thoughts.