Im a single mom going through a spiritual awakening and feel so lost and depressed.?

After two years on my awakening I feel like Ive discovered my potential. I took out 6 months to figure out what I wanted for my daughter and I. I also focused on giving my daughter more attention. I realised though that my mom didn't prepare me for life. She also gave up every easily when she got .m.s. She is little to no help because she's so negative. I have a plan to get myself in a happy place financial. But everyday I fail at going to apply for a new job( out of my comfort zone) Perhaps im afraid because for once im actually ready to be on my own but nobody in my family made it. however I have big plans on modeling. I know I have talent but I feel lonely. It feels like everything is so sensitive to me now and it effects my day. I have one best friend who i talk to occasionally but I feel like nobody understands me or can give me the right support. if not that then I feel they envy me or try to be nosey. To make it worse I chose to move in with my mom rent free to eventually save up for a house but its so eerry at our complex. I cleanse my space but still can't get comfortable. I know the solution is to get a job but I feel so burdened and tired. Ive accomplished so much that most couldn't but this time im taking on a bigger role and that's being a mom. Im only 23 my daughter is 3. Everyday I feel like im failing her because im so lost and depressed :(. On top of that Im surrendering to a twin flame. Who ive caused myself lots of stress due to being in this dark space!