silina b

I WORK IN ABROAD FOR 6 MONTHS AND COME BACK AGAIN IN MY COUNTRY AFTER 6 MONTHS GO BACK TO WORK AGAIN FOR ANOTHER 6 MONTHS.YET LAST YEAR I MET A GUY(3 weeks before i go home) HE SEEMS NICE AND GENTLEMAN TO ME WITHIN THAT WEEKS I START TO FEEL SOMETHING FOR HIM BUT I TOLD MYSELF PROBABLY BCOZ OF HIS TREATMENT TO ME.THEN,I HAD TO GO BACK TO MY COUNTRY AND WE STILL COMMUNICATE EACH OTHER THROUGH PHONE CALLS.UNTIL I HAD TO GO BACK TO WORK.AND THIS TIME I KNEW ALREADY WHAT KIND OF FEELINGS I HAVE TO HIM BUT THE PROBLEM HIS MARRIED.WHITHIN 6 MONTHS,WE GET CLOSER AND CLOSER WE BOTH FELT GUILT BUT WE CANT AVOID EACH OTHER.I KNOW HE LOVES ME BUT HIS CONFUSE AND SO DO I.LAST JUNE I COMMIT SUICIDE BCOZ OF HIM(he get jealous to one of guy friend and he thinks i betrayed him which im not.i tryied to call him but he dont answer my call for 4 days.thats why i commit) WHEN HE FOUND OUT HE STRAIGHT AWAY COME TO MY PLACE AND SCOLDING ME.AFTER THAT INCIDENT HE TRUST ME ALREADY AND I TRUST AS WELL EVER SINCE MANY TIMES HE PROVES TO ME HE LOVES ME.EVEN HIS WIFE ALMOST NOTICED IT.UNTIL I FINISHED MY JOB THERE AND HAVE TO GO BACK AGAIAN IN MY COUNTRY.NOW THE PROBLEM IS THAT THIS MONTH HIS WIFE FOUND OUT OUR EXCLUSIVE NUMBER AS WELL AS MY PHOTO.SHE STARTED TO TXTTING ME AND SWEARING AT ME.

I KNOW ITS A BIG SINNED BUT GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM.BUT I MUST TO DO THE RIGHT THING YES? AND I MUST TO LET HIM GO BEFORE IT GETTING WORST.BUT HOW CAN I TALK TO HIM EVEN THE PHONE HER WIFE HOLD IT.AND I WANT TO SAY SORRY TO HER AND I'LL NEVER BOTHER THEM.ITS JUST IM CONFUSED COZ I ADMIT IM STILL LONGING THAT SOMEDAY WE COULD BE TOGETHER BUT I KNOW ITS WRONG PLEASE HELP ME MY SOUL AND MY HEART IS SHATTERED INTO PIECES I CANT EVN TALK IT TO MY MOM.I NEED YOUR HELP....