natalie

Anything bad that could happen to one human being, has happened to me.. I can't take it anymore!! I recently turned 17 but I've been depressed, anxious, insomniac and depersonalized for the past 5 years but it's only getting worse. My mum left me and has hardly any contact with me anymore, my dad is really sick with cancer and it breaks my heart to see him that way. I have no friends, I don't go to school or have a job because I physically and mentally can't. I'm just constantly stuck in my own thoughts, I don't know who I am anymore and everything feels weird.. I don't know how to cope! I'm never hungry because of how anxious I always am and I've lost so much weight.. I hardly ever sleep and when I do it's never at the right times.. Days don't even mean anything no more and all I think about is suicide.. But i know I can't do that because of my dad, I love him to much to make him go through more pain. Please help! What's the right thing to do? I feel like nothing is working, I never usually complain this much but I need someone to talk to or else I'll go insane.

It all started 5 years ago, I was 12 years old and was getting bullied at school, I had insomnia too and they both made me very anxious and depressed.. It got to the point where I was scared to sleep, it got worse and worse I ended up getting really bad depersonalization, I didn't know who I really was, everything felt alien and to top it off my mum moved away and left us. I only have my dad, I don't go to school or have a job so I don't have any close friends.. As the years went by I started to feel a little better but last year my dad got diagnosed with cancer, it just hit me with a ton of bricks. And he seems to be getting worse and worse. I can't handle the pain no more, I feel like I'm just here but I'm not really living, I don't understand anything no more, I'm constantly just in my head thinking the worst about everything and I have panic attacks almost daily, I throw up constantly because I am so scared, I never feel hungry, I've lost so much weight I have to force myself to drink water., and go outside.I never feel tired, I've only slept 2 hours in the past 3 days. I feel like I'm going insane as I have no one to talk too. I need my dad and he's so sick. Breaks my heart. I want to kill myself but I know that's not what he wants me to do. I never usually complain this much but I just can't take no more and nothing seems to be helping. Please tell me one of you have been through something similar, please let me know what the best thing to do is. I need help

I'm 17 and I'm just soo depressed, anxious and angry 24/7. It started around 5 years ago, I couldn't sleep at night and had tons of panic attacks. I would never go to school (I did get bullied but that wasn't just it) I then got depersonalisation really bad and I only had my dad. My mum wasn't around.. Just as I started to get better my dad got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. He is getting worse and worse and I just don't know how to cope.. Life was already hard now it just hit me like a ton of brikes, it breaks my heart seeing him that way and I have no one to talk to. I usually keep it all to myself but tonight I just couldn't take anymore. I have severe sucicidle thoughts but at the same time I'm too scared to do it.. And I know my dad won't want me too. I can't wrap my head around life no more, I don't have a job, I don't go to school I have nothing. I have panic attacks daily and can't get out my own thoughts. It doesn't sound as bad writing it here but I just feel completely drained, day in and day out. I've tried going to church, talking to doctors but nothing helps. Do you have any idea what I should do to make myself at least a tiny bit more with it ? I need help

For the past few months weird things have been happening to me, it's like I randomly zone out of the moment and my eyes go all funny. Like you know sometimes when you look at a screen too long and your eyes go all shaky, it's like that but lasts longer and feels weirder.. I've also been getting deja vu a lot, like every single day and I hate it.. Also the most alarming thing is I've been getting twitches in my left side of my face, like really bad they'll last for 10 minutes straight (mostly my eyelids) what do you think it could be ? Does it sound like a minor seizure ? P.s I have suffered from depersonalization for about 5 years (I'm 17) but it's not that, it deffo feels like something more..

I know it doesn't make much sense but today I woke feeling like crap, really weak, feeling sickly, headache type of pressure, muscle aches and cold sweats. I'm just completely drained, but the thing is I don't have a runny nose, a cough, sore throat or a high temperature plus I just know it's not the flu but why do I feel this way ?? Everything seems really altered too if that makes sense like I just don't feel right and i have no idea why?

I'm 17 and for the past 5 years or so I haven't left my bed, I don't go to school due to my mental health.. Or excersise and rarely leave the house. It's also due to my sleeping pattern, I stay awake all night in my bed then sleep all day.!I'm I've spent like 90 percent of my teen years in my bed.. And I heard recently that can cause a bloody clot. My dad and uncles also have had dvt. Do you think this is possible ?

My period pains are so bad

I've had my period for 4 years now and I've never ever experienced pain like this untill the past few months, my cramps have gotten so bad in my stomach, back and legs to the point I can't move out my bed! it's keeping me awake, I'm throwing up and sweating. Last night I fainted for the first time in my entire life because they were so bad!! Nothing helps either, I've tried paracetamol, hot water bottles, hot bath etc. I know I should go to the doctor but I have a feeling they'll just offer me birth control which I don't want to don't take at 15. I have bad anxiety and I've heard birth control has a lot of side affects. Is there anything else I can do? I can't deal with this much longer

Okay I'm a 16 year old girl and I'm 99% sure I am gay, either that or bisexual but pretty sure I only like girls !! Idk it's confusing but I don't know how to "come out" and I honestly don't know if I should either.. My parents are against it, they say they love everyone and I know they would never disown me but I know they would be disappointed :/ did anyone else have parents like that? I'm not sure how to break it to them as I'm scared of their reaction. Also I have no clue how to find a girl (one that I actually really like also) it seems so easy to get a guy, especially at 16 but like how do meet other lesbian girls? There's not a lot and most of them seem really stereotypical, dress like a boy, play football, hang with guys and stuff but I'm not into that. I love girls who don't really show it off, I always fall in love with straight girls and ive never had a girlfriend. So how do I come out ? How do I find a girlfriend that I like ? I know I've got plenty of time but I just need help:) anyone been in this situation ??

And I don't know how to bring it up but I'm worried about them.. My sister is 25 she has a 4 year old daughter and a 2 year old son. They are really lovely kids, occasionally they'll fight or do something their not supposed but what little kids don't ? My sister is always screaming at them, she calls them names and swears a lot. The neighbours even complained as she was raising her voice too much late at night.. I watch her with them and she's so aggressive, the way she pulls them or shoves them in places, the only thing she rarely does is hit.. She usually only does that when they are actually being bad. But she is still so agreessive. I've also noticed when they get hurt or are just crying she doesn't comfort them the way you would with little kids, she lets them cry it out and I don't like watching it. At first I thought I better not get involved, it's her life and plus I'm only 16! But it's getting worse, the 2 year old is actually really scared of her and it hurts me!! What is the best thing to do ? I'm so lost I don't know if I should tell someone as I know it's not proper abuse but it's still wrong in my eyes the way she treats them sometimes

This isn't actually a joke I'm actually wondering what to do lol. Last year was the most boring summer ever, I literally done nothing. This is my last summer before I finish school for good and I want to make the most of it even if I have no friends or money.. My best friend (and ONLY friend) will be in college all summer and I know for sure my parents won't want to do anything with me lol. Is anyone else in the same boat as me or got any suggestions ?? Please helppp, thank you :D

My hair was down to my butt and I only wanted a couple of inches taken off but my parents had arranged to get it cut shoulder length. I really hate it and wondering how long it will take to grow back to the way it was ?! Or even half way down my back because I miss it already :/

About 5 years ago I was at the hospital getting my heart checked and the doctor was being really weird with me at first, telling me I'm beautiful and he will be sad to see me leave here. Then as he was checking my heart he grabbed my boob and was giving me a creepy smile, he tried to put his hands down my pants but luckily a nurse walked in so he stopped. I was mortified, as I was walking out he gave me a wink and said see you again.

I was only around 11 at the time so I was scared to tell anyone and I just left it at the back of my mind, hoping they'd never send me back to that doctor! Luckily I never went back but now I'm 16 I've been thinking about it and how wrong it was! Because God knows what else he has done/ is doing! I told my mum and she says there's nothing we can do now, but I'm just wondering if there is something I can do ? I only remember the name of the hospital and not the actual doctors name, which may not work out. What should I do ? Or should I just leave it ?

I'm 16 years old, I've been depressed and anxious for about 4 years now. It has been really tough as I've been so lost and confused but I just got through it, i guess I was always expecting things to get better and it never made me feel suicidal.. Until now. I feel like I'm so done with everything, everything is the same, I'm always feeling the same way and my dads illness is getting worse, I just want to kill myself so i don't go through anymore pain. I can't take this anymore, nothing's seeming to help and I'm not sure what to do, help!!

Go to the cinema with friends ?

Go to the mall/ shopping centre with friends ?

Stay home alone ?

Walk to school alone ?

Get a bus or train to school alone ?

Go to parks and things with friends ?

Get a tattoo ?

Move out ?

I'm just curious, I'd say like 8-18 for these things

Tbh I don't even see the point in 15 rated movies as most 15 year olds will already know what sex, drugs and violence is and would have known for a few years, also they wouldn't change after seeing it lol.

But what I really don't get is the point in 18 movies,! At 18 you can already legally have sex, drink and live on your own. It's not like you wouldn't know about it or have not done any of those things by 18 lol. Makes no sense, I'm sure you can handle a bit of sex on a screen before 18 haha!!

I still don't get the conspiracies. Why would the government do such a thing to innocent people ? What's the point ? And why do people think this anyway? Please explain

I'm 15 and am sick of pads, I've been wanting to use tampons for a while but when I read online about tss it scared me. I'm prone to like everything, and I fear that my body will just take a reaction to it and I'll end up getting tss. I know it's only when you leave the tampon in longer than 8 hours but I seen a girl on the news only had hers in for 3 hours and died!! How common is this? And do you think I should just go for it ?

Also please don't suggest menstrual cups, I can't get them and also have heard horror story's about them too. Plus I doubt I'll be able to insert a cup when nothing has ever gone up there.. Hahah

Ever since I was young I have suffered from constipation, it's gotten worse over the past year or so though. I can go even weeks without pooping!! Like today will be my 8th day consipated.. It happens a lot and I'm getting worried. What do I do and how dangerous is this ?