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Just curious, I want to see if the earth is closer or farther away from the sun and I also want to look into celestial alignments and how they might affect our weather. I have heard of the farmers almanac and its incredible accuracy; I've heard of some ideas on their methods and I'm looking into it.

My girlfriend Maddie was molested at a young age, up until 9 she coninued with the horror. Her died died of heroin overdose when she was 7 and that noght she got raped by the molester. He is now in prison, her mom became a drunk and offered little to no support for her. Then she met this son of a ***** named luke.....he brainwashed her into thinking that i was her fault that Luke raped and beat her....He RAPED and BEAT her and she still thought it was her fault. Needless to say i took care of him. then when i started dating her i had to gain her trust, so many men had let her down before she had given up on them.. i was thankful i was different. But ever night for the next 2 years of my life i stayed up until 3 or 4 in the moring with her comforting her and keeping her from suicide. Two years of my life i had about 2 hours of sleep a night. She killed herself not to long ago with the last words of i love you but im sorry. I fell asleep on the phone with her...one of three times during these 2 years. we talked about this before but i still fell asleep....i was awaken by the sound of a hanging and choking of my baby blue, my one and only....i called her mom but she was drunk and did nothing the next day i was informed that she died on the phone with me....its my fault for her death and i am so incredibly depressed. i miss her so damn much and i want to cease my existence, i've tried therapy and its not working....right now drugs and friends have been getting me through...i'm only 16

My girlfriend Maddie was molested at a young age, up until 9 she coninued with the horror. Her died died of heroin overdose when she was 7 and that noght she got raped by the molester. He is now in prison, her mom became a drunk and offered little to no support for her. Then she met this son of a ***** named luke.....he brainwashed her into thinking that i was her fault that Luke raped and beat her....He RAPED and BEAT her and she still thought it was her fault. Needless to say i took care of him. then when i started dating her i had to gain her trust, so many men had let her down before she had given up on them.. i was thankful i was different. But ever night for the next 2 years of my life i stayed up until 3 or 4 in the moring with her comforting her and keeping her from suicide. Two years of my life i had about 2 hours of sleep a night. She killed herself not to long ago with the last words of i love you but im sorry. I fell asleep on the phone with her...one of three times during these 2 years. we talked about this before but i still fell asleep....i was awaken by the sound of a hanging and choking of my baby blue, my one and only....i called her mom but she was drunk and did nothing the next day i was informed that she died on the phone with me....its my fault for her death and i am so incredibly depressed. i miss her so damn much and i want to cease my existence, i've tried therapy and its not working....right now drugs and friends have been getting me through...i'm only 16

my girlfriend was adopted, her "dad" is abusive sexually verbally physically, and i don't know if i should tell someone, i haven't been able to talk to her and ask her, i'm really scared...what should i do?