Dreamy

So basically I am in university but im failing. I cant concentrate. I have no ambitions any more. I dont know what is wrong with me. It is like i reached to a level that I cant take it anymore. I feel like im a loser and also ashamed to face my family and everyone else. I just want to run and run until i drop dead. I wasnt this much weak before 5 years but now im a totally different person. A total loser who is failing university, who has no friends, who is imagining things and plus heart broken. I considered killing myself but i dont have the guts even to do that. I just want once just once in my life for a single wish to come true or at least something good happens to me or maybe a little bit of luck but anyway what can i do I can't turn back the time.