Paul

I was told I am a jugdemental person the other day... I was wondering if there was a good kind and a bad kind.

I never look at someone and assume anything, I judge people on their actions and how they treat people. Which I never really thought was a bad trait. I do Not judge people by looks.

so i think i have an anxiety problem, im not quite sure tho so any input would be nice. symptoms i get when dealing with people in clued rapid heart beating, sweating, lose of speech ( both in volume and patterns). the sweating does not happen all the time but the other symptoms happen all the time when a lot of people have their attention on me or depending on the subject of the conversations people are having a round me. its not so bad if im a round people i know but it still happens none the less. i can give more details if needed but what i put is the jist of it.

so a couple of months ago i was in therapy for depression and my therapist said i am too open minded that i tend to pick up on other people's personality traits. i do notice it happening all the time and i was wondering how the heck that happens.

ok i hear a lot of people who think suicide is illegal in the usa which is not true i think people are dumb for thinking. i am a person who has attempted suicide in the recent past and have had lots of questions about it and the most frequent answer i get is it is wrong because it is illegal( which is not true at all). by this i mean suicide can have good effects for the economy like. if a person who does not want to live works well they kill them self look there is a job for a person who wants to live. down fall of that part. if a person who works but doesnt want to live kills them self there is a job open for a person who wants to live but not work. is that a down fall? less people sucking up money from the people who work and pay taxes( see how i didnt say government that is because for the government to pay for things it needs a job but it cant have one its not a living being) down fall it hurts peoples feelings. people should get over that and stop trying to have people hospitalized because that is no way of living at all. i am a realist. when there is no balance it is a cartography. in todays world we have more people being born then what are dieing. isnt that bad for the natural balance something we are taught in school about animals? yes we are animals we just dont consider ourselves animals. now im not the smartest person in the world im only 24 and i have not finished high school but there is something wrong with people and im not talking about illness what im talking about is intelligence. here in the usa we have what we call individual rights. and only we have the right to violate them and we are allowed to use violence to protect them. im a person who does not condone suicide but i think we have the right to decide for ourselves if it is worth ending out lives or not what i tell people is to put it off for a year or so to see if things get better or not if they get better good for them if not its their choice to do it

ok i hear a lot of people who think suicide is illegal in the usa which is not true i think people are dumb for thinking. i am a person who has attempted suicide in the recent past and have had lots of questions about it and the most frequent answer i get is it is wrong because it is illegal( which is not true at all). by this i mean suicide can have good effects for the economy like. if a person who does not want to live works well they kill them self look there is a job for a person who wants to live. down fall of that part. if a person who works but doesnt want to live kills them self there is a job open for a person who wants to live but not work. is that a down fall? less people sucking up money from the people who work and pay taxes( see how i didnt say government that is because for the government to pay for things it needs a job but it cant have one its not a living being) down fall it hurts peoples feelings. people should get over that and stop trying to have people hospitalized because that is no way of living at all. i am a realist. when there is no balance it is a cartography. in todays world we have more people being born then what are dieing. isnt that bad for the natural balance something we are taught in school about animals? yes we are animals we just dont consider ourselves animals. now im not the smartest person in the world im only 24 and i have not finished high school but there is something wrong with people and im not talking about illness what im talking about is intelligence. here in the usa we have what we call individual rights. and only we have the right to violate them and we are allowed to use violence to protect them. im a person who does not condone suicide but i think we have the right to decide for ourselves if it is worth ending out lives or not what i tell people is to put it off for a year or so to see if things get better or not if they get better good for them if not its their choice to do it.

have been dealing with clinical depression for 15 years now i am 24 i was diagnosed with it after my mom and dad started to beat the adah out of me and i will skip alot after i attempted suicide do to alot happening lost job, girlfriend and seasonal depression some people were telling me that my ex was cheating on me the whole time we were dating and getting me to drink and stuff while i was on antidepressants. at the same time telling her i was saying alot of things that i had never said or taken out of context why would people do this to someone who has already shown they dont want to live. and for the record i did not go to the hospital of my own freewill i was forced and fought to not go they ended up putting me to sleep for 3 days. i guess my question is did they want me to do it and hide so no one could make me go to the hospital? this was 2 or 3 months ago i just need others input on this

i have been dealing with depression for about 5 months now and have attempted suicide 4 times and have only been hospitalized once do to someone calling the cops. now i just hide from everyone and when i see them i act lke stuff is going good but i still dont feel like life is worth living at all. i feel worthless and hopeless most of the time when i walk home from work i see vehicles go by and wonder if it would be better if i just walked out infront of one and or think about jumping off a bridge i have talked to a therapist about these feeling but it doesnt help at all. i hate myself no matter what i do i cant help that feeling i try to help people salve their problems on here to try to make me feel better but it doesnt help. the thing i hate about myself is when i get hurt emotionally i say anything to try to hurt the person i am in a relationship with and do to that i am unable to have the only thing in life i have ever wanted. my own family. and truth be told it is something i really cant help i have tried my hardest but nothing works. im great with kids i have never and will never hurt any i was abused as a child and there for i dont believe in harming them for any reason. the corner works fine. but do to the verbal impulse i get when i am hurt by the person i am in a relationship with i have never really been able have a good relationship i have been in a few bt i was treated really bad and the one good one i was in i ruined when i got hurt emotionally i really dont believe in just having a relationship with just anyone usually only the people i can feel connected to emotionally and romantically. and do to a online test i have taken it says that i am a “hopeless romantic" i really dont understand what that implies but know it can not be good for some in this day and age. i guess i just dont see myself with a purpose in life at all. i am 24 years old and when i am asked what i want out of life and my reply is a family of my own i start to cry no matter who it is that asks a stranger on the street of a close friend it really doesnt matter. it has gotten to the point where i cause my brother stress and he has made me move in to make sure i dont try to commit suicide again. but i really dont see a point in living at all i just feel worthless completely even tho i know i am not i am worth the taxes i pay in but really f**k the government they take my money that i need and give it to people who have kids. when i want money to save up so i can have a family of my own and that f**king blows i mean really i would like to commit suicide just out of spite of them really