AiokiNova

In the beginning of the summer I went to go visit my aunt in a different state, whom I haven't seen for a couple of years. She has two sons, who are my first cousins and I haven't seen them in a very long time since I was about 10. Now I am almost 20 years old. The younger one is the same age as me and we honestly developed feelings for each other while I was over there. We started off as awkward because it's been so long and then we became best friends, and inseparable everywhere we went. It all started when we were at the movies one night and we held hands over a scary part of the movie and it felt so innocent and nice. We shared a first kiss that night and I've never felt this way with anyone ever before. I never thought in a million years that this would happen to me but it did. We compliment each other in every way and he understands me like no other. I know there is a strong social stigma against this but what I could do if I cannot hold my feelings back for him. My mother is now aware of what's going on and she supports me she just wants me to see genetic counseling if we actually last and decide to spend our lives together and have future children. I just don't know how I could get over the social stigma. He doesn't care what anyone thinks but I do and I feel ashamed. I always used to judge people for this but now I'm in their shoes and I feel so terrible for ever doing that. We can't choose who we fall in love with or how it happens doesn't that count for anything/:

I m going through this problem right now with a guy I started dating a few months ago. I acknoleege that I have a problem in relationships where i get easily infatuated and then i lose interest quite quickly..I got involved with someone and things moved very fast and now it s evident that he is very in love with me and I do not feel the same way. The problem is that I was very attached in the beginning and I reciprocated the same feelings back to him but now I feel like i almost did a 180 degree turn. I plan to work on this and never do this again, but as of right now I do not know how to get out of this situation without hurting him. The more distant I get, the more he clings on. Please help.

I go to a public university in new jersey and i m only going into my sophomore year of college and im already in 20,000 or more in debt with the interest that will accumulalte on my loans.. i regret taking them out, and i regret going to college in the first place. I wish i went to a community college first but i was so anxious to leave home and i made foolish choices. Would it be stupid to drop out and go to a community college now? I don t know what to do..i just don t want to take out any more loans.

Okay so i went to this party with one of my friends a few weeks ago and i ran into a highschool friend who happens to be my best friend's ex f*ck buddy. She lost her virginity to him two years ago and they had sex for a few months and then it ended. So we exchanged numbers at the party to catch up and since then we've been hanging out two-three times a week. He's known to be a player but i made it clear to him that i don't want to play any games and he was super respectful about it and we've talked a lot about his past and how hes not proud of a lot of it. We spend a lot of time together and so i thought being honest with my best friend would be a good idea. She said she was totally cool with us hanging out but to just be careful with him. But then yesterday one of my friends who hung out with her told her that she's actually really annoyed with the fact that i'm spending time with him and that she'd be angry if we were to get intimate. I feel like **** now because i thought talking it out with her before meant that she was okay with it , but i kinda understand how it would bother her a little bit i just wish she would've told me sooner than now because i'm beginning to like him at this point. What should i do? Am i being a bad friend? How do i even approach her now, this is super awkward for me..

So I met this guy about two months ago at a party. We're both on the same track team n college but we never talked until that night we met. We started talking frequently after that and hanging out until one other night at a part we hooked up and then we kept hooking up ever since. We made it clear that we both weren't looking for anything serious, but as i should've known, i ended up catching feelings for the guy. It was my first time ever fooling around with someone without being in a relationship, and now I just really feel like crying all the time. We both went our separate ways for the summer now, and it ended on an embarrassing note on my part..there was one last team party and i got wasted and was all over him the entire night. I was so sloppy and so bad that someone had to pull him away from me and i ended up crying all the way back home. I'm completely embarrassed about this and i ended up apologizing to him. He told me not to stress over it but that's all im doing. Now i just found out he's talking to some other girl back where he lives, and i KNOW it should not bother me, but it does. How can i get over him? I took him off of some social media and i deleted his number so i won't text him, but i don't want to completely cut him off because i don't want it to be awkward when we see each other next semester..i feel like a complete failure and whore, i just wish i never chose to do this because it all blew up in my face :(

Okay so i met this guy three weeks ago at a track team party and we clicked instantly. We never talked before because we do different events in track. That night we met he gave me his number and he would text me all the time. We went to another track team party together and we ended up kissing. Everything was still fine and he still texted me all the time. Then we hung out and we made out sober for the first time. The next day we had a race and we would talk a little bit, but we didn't show any type of affection in public. People do have an idea that we have something going on because people constantly connect me with him or mention him when i'm around. I cheered him on for all his races, and asked him how it went. I felt like a fool for being so concerned with his races, when he did not even ask me how mine went! My concern now is that for easter weekend he hasn't texted me, and i feel like it is strange considering that he did all the time before, and the last few days i would be the one to text him first. I have no idea where this is going. I don't want to be clingy or scare him off so i'm trying not to contact him until he does.. but am i doing something wrong?

I don't get myself at all. I HATE myself for feeling like this but I can't help it. I've been in a relationship with an amazing guy for 9 months now who's loved me long before our relationship even started. He's everything a woman wants, sweet, caring, loyal, responsible, hardworking etc. and yet I am now having doubts as to spending the rest of my life with him. Im only 17 years old but people say that I'm very mature my age, but right now I don't feel all that mature. I'm leaving to college soon and I'm going crazy thinking about my future and I'm not sure I even want a relationship right now...I'm even thinking about my past relationship with my ex, he was a complete asshole but we had a lot of chemistry and we still talk from time to time , and I think back and how much I miss being in arguments and having drama or SOMETHING . I feel like I'm almost bored of being in my relationship and I really don't want to feel that way..why is it that I have the perfect guy and I can't appreciate it as much as a normal person would..what do I do..

I'm going on a school trip in about 10 days and I feel stupid for not planning ahead on how I will take out money in Spain and on what type of card I should use? I was looking at a capital one card that has 0% fee in transactions in other countries but I think it's too late to apply on the card I need it in 10 days!! Please help me, what would be the best option? What debit card or credit card should I use ? Or a prepaid card ? I have no idea ..

I'm going on a school trip in about 10 days and I feel stupid for not planning ahead on how I will take out money in Spain and on what type of card I should use? I was looking at a capital one card that has 0% fee in transactions in other countries but I think it's too late to apply on the card I need it in 10 days!! Please help me, what would be the best option? What debit card or credit card should I use ? Or a prepaid card ? I have no idea ..

I never paid much attention to the beatles , I'm also really young considering when they came out and everything I'm only 17 years old. So in music class one day, my teacher starts playing their music and talking about their story, I was interested so I started to look them up and I really like their music but their story is quite sad and now when I listen to their songs I feel like crying..does anyone else feel this way?! I wish I could meet all of them but there are 2 dead already ..and the way john lennon died is just so tragic...

Please tell me your opinions

I went to my first college party yesterday with my boyfriend and i tried my best to socialiZe with people and I was having a good time. The thing is, I'll socialize with people, make small talk, whatever. But one of my boyfriends friends is very loud and obnoxious and starting picking on me for being "too quiet". Should I yell in his ear or talk nonsense ? I mean I just DONT GET IT. Yes, I know I'm a quiet person, but that doesn't mean I don't talk. He made me feel so uncomfortable that at that point I didn't want to talk at all. I quickly got irritated and I wanted to just leave. Why do people pick on me like that? I'm shy around new people but I still make an effort.

My friend's mother basically just called me fat a few days ago by saying that my butt/thigh area are too thick. ive always been thick but im in shape, even though ive been out for a while because of my shin injury im a very dedicated runner. this really offended me. am i fat or what?

warning: im in my underwear so if you dont want to see, simply dont click on it!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/58701028@N05/12620518...

I would say that I'm a sociable and kind person to everyone except when they say rude/immature things to me. This is the third time this school year that someone has said something to me that didn't sit well with me and I HAD to say something about it. This kid in my school told me that I was stupid for not being able to take a joke. His jokes always consist of belittling people and calling people S l u t s. Including my friends. I just got so ******* offended and hurt by it , I can't help it! Why are people so immature !!! And then after I got fed up and I said I didn't like that, he says I don't know how to have fun. Well he doesn't know how to respect people ! I had no idea "having fun" is to be a jerk ..am I wrong about this? And if I am sensitive, at least I'm a respectful person ..

I love my boyfriend to death but it's so irritating how sometimes people tell me that I'm too "pretty" for him. I don't get it, yes ,he's not the most handsome guy in the world, but he has the heart of an angel and he is just so amazing ..I've learned to look passed his looks and he does have some attractive features anyway ! What's wrong with people it makes me so upset ... Here are some pictures of us ...

http://m.flickr.com/#/photos/58701028@N05/11953194...

http://m.flickr.com/#/photos/58701028@N05/11953739...

http://m.flickr.com/photos/58701028@N05/1195319541...

http://m.flickr.com/#/photos/58701028@N05/11953337...

This is not the first time I hear this in my 17 years of existence. In fact, it's about the third time I hear it from one of my close friends and it's starting to irritate me. This friend who recently told me says that I've changed for the worse, saying that I never make time for her, that I go out too much with other people and that I'm never there for her. We used to be together all the time, but back then I was very shy I didn't have many friends. My junior and senior year I made more friends, and started to break out of my shell. I've applied to many colleges , and I'm starting to really make a difference in my life. She gets mad with all of this and says that she wants to dorm with me in college , but I DO NOT. Am I wrong ?? I don't want to be stuck with anyone , I want to live my life and I'm sick and tired of people telling me that I changed. Isn't change supposed to be good? I feel like I grew apart from her but I can't help it . I feel like we have nothing in common anymore.

I feel like this is so true and it frustrates me so much..I had a very bad past relationship that lasted on and off for 3 years. He was a liar, deceiver, cheater, and i spent more time crying than smiling with him. I was a fool for letting it drag on for so long but I learned to finally say no to him. He would leave me so many times and the last time he did, i promised myself i wouldn't chase after him and i didn't. He ended up crawling back to me, begging me to take him back and i said no. I now have a new relationship and i couldn't be any happier! This is the man of m dreams, the complete opposite of my ex. However, from time to time i think of my ex and i always WANT to wish him the worst for everything he put me through but i just cant. WHY? Why do i think of him and still feel like i want the best for him. He texted me out of the blue on thanksgiving to wish me a good holiday and from there he kept saying how much he missed me and i DON'T want him back, but it hurts to just know that i gave him so many opportunities and he always ruined them, and now its too late..why does this happen and will i always love him even though i will never be with him again?

These are some pictures im planning to use for photography class! which one do you think is the nicest? i tried to portray selena gomez from her video "come and get it" i know i dont look anything like her but its just for the assignment. what do you think?

http://www.flickr.com/photos/58701028@N05/11102549...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/58701028@N05/11102553...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/58701028@N05/11102440...

honest opinions please!

the pictures look a lot better if you actually click on them to look at them!