Penny Lane

Over the past few days, my hips have been rather stiff, and feeling the need to click, though the haven't been painful, so I haven't really thought much about it. But very recently, I've been having pain in the front of my hip where the joint is. It hurts when I bring my foot forward to take a step.

I do a lot of running and a lot of walking, so I'm worried that this hip pain will interfere with that.

What could be the issue and how can I solve it?

I love running, and I'd go every day if I could, but it really wears me out (after going for 3-5 days in a row), so I'm often in need of a day or two's rest. Though, on these rest days, I can't help but feel so guilty, and feeling like I really should get up and run.

Does anyone else feel this way?

I've been running for a year now, and I do 20 minutes at the least and 50 minutes at the most. I go 3-5 times a week. Is this enough, or should I start going for longer periods of time?

I'm slightly worried. For the week, I've been consuming around 1200 calories, though today, I've consumed 2004 calories. I feel awful. Will I have gained any weight, or will I be the same tomorrow?

Okay, so today, I've consumed 1881 calories BUT I've worked off 471 calories so really, would I have consumed 1410? I'm worried because I'm afraid that I didn't really work off all of those calories and I've actually just consumed 1881. It sounds really stupid, but I'm really getting upset over it.

I ran for 50 minutes, if that helps at all, and I also did 15 minutes of pilates.

Just a few months ago, I was uncontrollably binging every night. I was so frustrated and ashamed, and honestly, quite depressed. I thought that if I'd just stop binging, and eat around 1200 calories a day, I'd be so much happier. This is now my fifth non-binge week. I should be thrilled about it, but I still feel horrible and disgusting and ashamed.

Help?

So, I was just thinking, it’s been believed for a while that the last person you think about before you fall asleep is either your lover, or your enemy. But what if you are neither? what if no one thinks of you before they fall asleep? What if you aren't on anyone’s mind the moment that they wake up in the morning, or at any other time of the day? What if no one ever thinks “I wonder what they’re doing right now...” or are reminded of you by something as simple as your favourite song? What if you’re that one that's always reliable, but you never cross anyone’s mind? It's kind of scary thinking about it.

All week, I worry about my p.e lesson (which I have once a week). I get palpitations and often panic attacks about it. I know it sounds stupid, but it's just so humiliating. I am terrible at anything to do with physical education. I can't catch, I can't throw, I can't dance, I can't run... etc. I'm hopeless! No one ever wants me on their team (I don't blame them), and they always get annoyed if I end up on theirs. They even try to catch the ball in my place, which I suppose I don't mind, but I find it humiliating in front of everyone.

Once the lessons over, I feel like I've let a whole lot of weight off my shoulders, and I feel so much more relaxed. It's stupid, because I'm doing exams right now, and p.e (which I'm not getting graded on) is what I'm worrying about.

How can I calm myself, or perhaps improve?

For about a year now, I've been running five times a week, but in the afternoon (usually after breakfast and lunch). I've been trying to switch it to mornings though, to fit in with my schedule, but when I run in the morning (even if I have breakfast before), I feel like I'm going to faint, and fail to do even half the amount I would usually do.

Does anyone have any tips?

The music that's popular, aka in charts (and I emphasize that. I know that there is still some good music) is horrifying, in my opinion. It's all about half naked dancers, some computerized sounds, and 12 year old looking boys singing about love. It sends a shiver down my spine. In fact, I have denied the present, because it sickens me. I tune out, and go back to the old classic rock favourites.

It really scares me about what will become of music though. I think that it'll only get worse. It'll be more dubstep, computerized sounds, and half naked dancers with no true talent.

What are your opinions on this?

Preferably in the rock genre. So far, I've been liking 'Control'(Ian Curtis), 'Stoned'(Brian Jones), 'Last Days'(Kurt Cobain),'Velvet Goldmine'(Loosely based on Bowie), 'Walk The Line'(Johnny Cash), 'Nowhere Boy'(John Lennon).

Any recommendations?

I've noticed this so many times amongst my friends. For instance, you'll often find two bestfriends where one is rather hurtful and selfish towards the other, yet the other continues to stick around with his/her friend. Or in a relationship, where one person treats the other horribly, and it's quite obvious that they don't deserve each other, yet nothing is done about it; if anything, it seems that the victim loves the other one even more!

Why is this?

Ian Curtis of Joy Division or Bernard Sumner of New Order? Which is most talented in your opinion? Which do you prefer?

My family are having a BBQ, but I'm on a diet at the moment, so I was just wondering if BBQ vegetables are okay to eat?

The big artists like Beyonce, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry...etc.

Also, what do you think will happen for music in the future? Which genre do you think/hope will be big next?