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Hi.

I am a 35 year old single dad and a week ago my ex from when I was 17 years old contacted me on facebook.

She was not my 1st sexual partner and I didnt realize she was actually my 1st true love, our relationship was bumpy and only less than 1 year, she sent me a photo of me abd her when I was about 17, I have no photo's of myself at that age even family pics as at the time I was rebellious teenager and didnt allow pics to be taken lol, the photo hit me like a truck, I am not sure if it was seeing the boy I used to be or if it was seeing us, I still dont know but now 4 days later I can look at it and not feel such pain

We were chaotic, we smoked weed and party all the time completely off the rails and it shocked me she has keep sakes after all she left me, all my relationships since have been chaos and I never felt 100% comfortable with a woman since and never have trusted a woman since then and also my last chaotic relationship ended on Christmas day lol..

I am not so religious but I believe God or the Universe has sent her to me so I can stop running from my past and deal with things I never dealt with in a healthy way, I meean I didnt cry when we split but 18 years later I cried for her/us, so weird.

All her relationships were crap also, she is a single mum of 2 and I am a single dad of 1, I have a bad short term memory for obvious reasons but her and her sister (and I) am amazed at how I remember so much from those days 18 years ago as if it was yesterday.

I know only now she was my 1st love, I still love her but not in love, I cant go back in time and change my past but it seems that things are coming full circle in many ways and I feel I have to make peace with it and finally forgive myself which I never have done.

Any advice will be greatly appreciated.

thank u.

I am a 35 year old single, full time parent of a 7 year old son.

I could write a book about all this and maybe I will but not tonight..

I have had full custody for 3 and a half years, I moved back here when I had been awarded custody as at the time was living with friends after my son's mother and I split.

In that break up I lost everything and declared bankruptcy,

I entered into a new relationship, an abusive one where I waited 3 years to live with her and she dumped me, came back 2 months later and had purchased a house of her own, I waited for nothing so we are over now.

I am on my feet now financially but its hard to get approved for a rental of my own, every application is rejected, I get a wage as I have a permanent injury from work and that wage is until retirement but still I get rejected, I do not get along with my Mother at all, she badgers me to the point where I just want to give up on life, abusive relationships are part of my life, I dont drink, dont do drugs, I smoke cigarettes thats all..

I love my son and want to have a life for him and with him before he is grown and its too late.

Any suggestions, criticism or whatever is appreciated.

My girl wants me to become a Christian or she will leave me.

I know its messed up, I believe in God but cant stand religion.

What should I do, Let her go, our relationship isnt so good anyway.

I was asleep actually during the afternoon as I have a late late night, and I had a strange dream.

I was with my family it seemed as though I didnt see their faces I knew theye were there with me as a group.

Not sure where we were but I looked over at my Aunty Fay who died suddenly 4 years ago.

We were talking amongst the group incoherent talk, then I asked my Aunt "Are you dead?", She replied "yes I am"..

Then I began to cry and I explained to her that if I could go back in time I would go back to when I used to spend summer holidays at her place on the coast with my cousins as a child, then I was crying even more and I said to her after a couple of attempts to say it, "I miss you", She then replied "I miss you all too".

Then a dark colored brown, almost black van appeared, the side door slid open and she then got in and the van drove away and I awoke.

I told my Mother of this as the dream was so real, my Mother then informed me this Sunday is the 4th anniversary of My Aunt's death.

What does this mean?

I am a mid 30's single daddy and have been in a 3 year relationship with a woman 9 years older.

We had many arguments as we seem to both have issues as most ppl do, but her ways of acting are strange, she likes control and is selfish.

In late July she began to act differently, starting fights over anything, abusing me for whatever, puting me down constantly even informing me she will not be devistated if I was to die amongst other nastiness and these were not during a fight just out of blue.

Then she stopped having sex as she claimed its immoral as she claims to be a Christian, but what about the other 500+ times we had sex in 3 years?

Then she began dressing differently to go to work, wearing more make-up, even shopping online for lingerie which she never even looked at before.

Then after 3 weeks of abuse I snapped and told her I had enough and accused her of wanting or being with another, I never threatened her but persisted in asking her to come clean and just tell me whats up.

She then went to police and got a restraining order (A.V.O.).

After court I didnt call or contact her at all, it was hardcore, hard times man I went to Hell and back, then 10 weeks later I was feeling better again &I receive a text message from her claiming she misses me is dying inside and wont 4get me.

I was so mad at her after all she had done and she left me 4 dead, my 6 year old loved her also, and as I had also had sex with someone in the time we were apart as I was so low I wanted to 4get her, it didnt help, but I knew i will have 2 tell her as thats how I am.

She denies still that there was someone else but I felt it inside of me, I was in misery for a long time, still am, all she says now she realizes she cant live without me..

Am I a fool if I try again with her?

I love her still, I am not ugly and getting a woman was never a problem for me but falling in love with bad ones is something I am good at.

Should I use her if I can as its hard to use someone u care about but the sex is awesome.?

Should I do 2 her what she did to me and leave her now forever?

Please help.

P.S. We dont live together (Thank God)