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such as probation?fines?jailtime ect...........

its an open ended question.

ok theres 3 family members right now mom, her fiance and my sister in law, that for a while now, have had alot of anger towards. ive had problems with my moms fiance over several things so i know why i hate him, but i seem to be angry at my mom for not being in my life more, cuz of her fiance, its like i have a baby and would love her help at times. and my sister in law, cuz she was 2 faced with me, and i think she talks alot of crap on our family so my brother is embarrassed. but its like everyday i think about it, and i hate it that these ppl consume my thoughts like this. how can i just let go.

ok i don't have a problem getting a gift to my mom and and brothers and my nephew, but i don't get along with my moms fiance(over valid reasons too, alot of bs between us) and i don't like my brothers wife, i think she makes it to where he dosnt like us. and really last year i bought them gifts and they didnt get me anything but they got my mom and her fiance gifts(her fiance over his sister? what kinda crap is that) so i figure my brother don't care for me much either, so i don't want to get them gifts this year. is that messed up of me? of is it wrong to only get my mom and brother a gift? cuz too me if these ppl don't care about me, then why should i keep being nice?and pretend that nothings wrong. cuz i tried to have a relationship with these ppl

I noticed when i visit my old city I feel less scared to walk down the street, cuz where i live now is a worse city. so im wondering if it's just me or if other people get like this!

i'm wanting to really make my rims shine, and i bought this no wipe tire cleaner the other day and it only worked on the center part, not the spoke like part. my car is pretty old a 1990, so im sure theres alot of build-up any suggestions would be great !!!!thanks

ok im not saying like thousnds of dollars a month or anything.

but it seems like with the extra money i have anfter bills, i like to buy fast food alot (ok i bought fast food almost everyday this month) and i know im wasting alot of money, but its like i keep doing it, and it almost feels like an urge type feeling. and its like i spend money almost everyday. i really hate it cuz i could save up so much money right now.

i also have have been on lithium for about 6 months, could it be because of the meds? because i don't remember being like this before(but right b4 that i was pregnant.

any advice or opinion on why im doing this, and how to stop it would help.

im just wondering because i have been taking lithium less than six months now, and i keep having the urge to want to spend money on fast food, or when i think of stuff i want to buy i get it, when i know i need to save it, im talking like $200 of fast food, and drinks per month, and im so angry at myself for it, but i keep doing it, and im starting to think its the meds cuz i dont remember being like this before.

i'm trying to learn spanish, and i got to the colors section, and black is ***** in spanish, and it got me thinking if the term was first used by white people or hispanics when refering to blacks back then?

who? and where? was the term first used.

I love Disco, it always puts me in a good mood and i want to get up and dance, but i don't admit it to everyone.

and also i like The Beach Boys, but thats my dads favorite band, and i always made fun of him growing up, but realy i like their songs alot.

I live in an old apartment complex(built in the 40's) and its the best affordable place right now, but theres an ant and cockroach problem, everynight it seems like the bugs come out, we can;t even leave a cup of juice out over night. it's getting to the point where some ants have crawled on me, they are in the cabinets, which makes me not want to eat the food.

They have the exterminator come out every friday, but when he comes over its like he squirts 2 sprays and is done. i dont feel like this method is working.

i bought poison spray to use, but im tired of doing that cuz i don;t like the thought of me and my baby inhaling poison all the time like that.

what can i do to have my landlord fix the problem better than what she's doing now? can i make her bomb the place? is there a breech (?)in the lease contract by having bugs everywhere( i know that if a place has a health issue, like mold, then u can break your lease w/o penalty does this count?)

or any suggestions on how to better get rid of the bugs, cuz we i;m a clean person, and i don't feel its my negligence thats causing the bugs.

thanks for any input

ok last night i got home from work late last night, and there was a controntation going on with some of our neighbors(we live in an apartment complex) so there were people being nosy as to what was happening........the police and ambulance showed up, and i was in the bathroom, and i could hear people right outside my window, so i checked and it was my neighbors upstairs hanging out on the back of my truck, they had their baby in the bed of the truck. now im not friends with these people, we say hi, but thats it. and it's a piece of crap truck, but i feel its very disrespectful to do that, my bf said they aren't causing any harm. but i feel that they feel like its ok to do what they please.

whats your ideas on it? would u have went outside then and been like get off my truck. or should i let it go?

lets say i was reading in the newspaper and found an event that has games,food,some little rides,music, and i went to the event, lets say it's a park, and pretty much everyone is african-american.

do i assume its an event for african -americans only, and i should not go.

or should i try to go anyway, and if anyone says anything about it, then i'll leave.

what the best way to approach this??

high??

i'm looking for a psychological explaination. thanks. and how can someone fix it?

im just curious about what others think of this name.

im just curious about what others think of this name.

ok i've been with my man for over a year and a half, we live together and we had a baby together.

but i really feel like in this relationship, i'm so much more insecure, jelous, possessive, moody, than i remember in past relationships...almost like this one is too intense for me.

and there are times when my boyfriend can be a jerk, and says smart a** stuff, and theres been some issues i've complained about several time. he says i get upset when things don't go my way, and thats why i'm like this.

i'm an emotional girl. and he's not at all, i don' think i've seen him cry. sometimes i feel like i don't get through to him... like im hoping he'll one day it'll be different....

anywayze i need advice on who to deal with my emotions...and im BP and have PPD

that's one of my favorite bands. I hope he will be ok.