LeeLee

so yesterday, I got some purple kush, it tasted great, it smelled flowery and natural. last night my friend and I smoked some, and we got really ****** up. not like we usually get high. my usual high is hazey and I enjoy everything, etc etc. but this high, was really different. we felt like we were dreaming. we felt like everything that was happening was in a dream and it wasn't. It almost felt like I was in another dimension, and then my nervous system started acting up and I started getting a little jittery because I was freaking out because I felt like I was dreaming. and we didn't smoke that much kush either, out of a hitter we probably repacked it twice. so tell me, was this **** laced or just really good ****??

this guy and I have been BEST friends for almost 3 years now. we were on and off friends with benefits for awhile, and then this past summer we started dating and getting really serious and then finally at the end of september we broke up but he wanted me back and **** went down. but before that him and I fell really really deeply in love. seriously. we talked about living arrangements after highschool and everything. we were legitimate. we wanted nothing but eachother. okay so anyways, I got really mad at him and didn't talk to him for awhile and he met this other girl. they started dating in january and have been constantly on and off. CONSTANTLY. they shouldn't even be together anymore. him and i started talking again months ago, we're best friends and we hooked up when him and the other girl broke up for a month. he told me he still loved me, and I still loved him. and when I stopped talking to him I got really really depressed. and he told me he got really depressed and cut a lot. basically, we couldn't live without eachother. and he's saying he loves this girl he's with. yet, everytime they break up he comes to me and talks to me all the time. and he tells me stuff about her. i like being his supportive best friend, but i hate hearing that some of the things he said about me he says about her. i can't stand it, but i could never tell him that. i'm pretty much waiting for them to officially break up. i'm still madly in love with him, i never stopped loving him. and when he's with her, he'll always look over at me. not like they're talking about me though, because she never looks. he'll just glance over at me all the time to like, see what i'm doing or something. i don't know. i'm really hung up on him though. i'll never stop loving him, ever. i can't go an hour without him crossing my mind. he's in my dreams, my thoughts, my school, my social network, everywhere. he's ******* everywhere. it's torture. my best friend alex, he loves the girl my ex is dating. so basically, we both want the other one. and we're waiting for them to just ******* end it already. it makes a lot of people depressed because everyone gets pushed away. i don't know what to do? what should i do about this situation? it's been making my depression so much worse, seeing him with her. i need him back. and i NEVER rely on anyone for happiness, but he's my everything.

I'm in high school, I have a lot of friends, and I am very good at helping others with serious problems and such, and my friends know this, they always come to me and I'm glad they respect my help and trust me, I love that. some of them help me with my problems back. but then theres some that think I have no problems and that my entire life revolves around solving theirs. I have enough **** on my plate as it is, I can't have other peoples problems one of my problems, I'm there to help, but I can't do everything for them, they seem to think I can or something, and I don't want to be rude, i've made it obvious I have my own problems and that I don't always have an answer for EVERYTHING. what can I do to just make them realize I have problems too without being rude? their problems are really serious, self harm problems, so that's why I can't be rude and give up on them, giving up on them is against my morals. I care about these people too much, but I'm tired of being a ******* crisis counsellor.