Mohammad R.

I'm sorry if this is too long.

I don't know if puberty is messing with my head or something but i'm like really depressed for no reason. I am 13 years old(boy). At schools i have 4 close friends but whenever i'm alone with just one there is an awkward silence because i am usually quiet. I feel like the only reason they hang out with me is because i'm smart and give them answers sometimes. I'm not funny and i rarely have interesting things to say. I talk about sports and play with them at times. I try not to laugh because i have weird teeth and need braces. I'm not even good at sports though, like in my class i'm not even in the top 5.

I sometimes have thoughts about becoming an atheist. I know god knows that i'm thinking this but i feel like there isn't enough evidence out there. There are a lotapparentlyent religions how the hell did that happen. I believe the best religion out there is Islam. The Islamic community seems the strongest and the one that will last the longest.

Another thing is that even though i am smart at school, i am not smart outside of school. I am pretty sheltered. I feel like i make poor decisions and am always under-confident(my friends tell me this).

I never had a girlfriend. There was one girl that rejected me and she refuses to dance with me at dance class or even talk to me anymore. She calls me ugly and crap like that. I've never done anything mean to her. I hate her now and i think she hates me too but oh well. Somehow i attract unattractive girls though.

I barely have any hobbies other than watching movies, i just play basketball after school until like 3:50 and get home by 4:30. I am in 8th grade. I recently took a test to get into a specialized high and missed by just a little! That really made me pissed off but not sad. I'm going to another high school. The only things i fear is that i have to make new friends all over again (NONE of my friends are going there too) and my friend told me they have freshmen Fridays there.

I have no working game systems i keep begging my mom for a ps3 or xbox 360 but she still hasn't bought me one.

I have pimples all over my face (counted 33) and a noticeable blemish in my skin. I am short and weak as hell. Skinny. But somehow i have man-boobs. Like my body is flat then there is a slight curve.

People tell me i seem sad and have low energy about life all the time

Lately i started not to give a crap about life. The point of it is to fail and die alone. We came into the world alone, and that's how we will leave it. Life sucks. I see no point. I won't commit suicide but i am depressed.

the song by Taylor Swift was in the commercial, and it came out a couple years ago.

5 Stars for the right answer.

And name the movie.

Okay guys i'm gonna try to make this as short as possible:

Okay there is this girl and i'm confused on what to do. I made a mistake last school year on just telling her i like her and asking her out, and she said no. I knew that she was gonna say no........

But its okay, i thought it would alright as long as she doesn't call me ugly and sh*t. But i thought wrong, she started doing exactly what i wanted her not to do. She starting calling me ugly and saying she doesn't like me and stuff and we kept argueing with each other. and like a couple months later she started going out with this other boy. She asked me if i'm ok with it and im like ok whatever, but she felt bad for me. 3 days after she started going out with him she broke up with him because she felt bad for me. So after the summer went by and this school year started we both kind of avoided each other and guess. It's funny, on like the 3rd week of school we exchanged our first words of the school year. But it was only 1 sentence. And we were forced to since we had to work with each other. Now i keep catching her look at me and i catch her beautiful eyes. Also i know that she talks about me with her friends because well i hear my name in their conversations. Starting on the 1st day of school i always held doors for her whenever we leave and she never says anything but today she BLUSHED A LOT and said "Why do you always do this"

So what do you guys think is she coming on to me and should i go for it?

Miranda Cosgrove, Victoria Justice, and Emmy Rossum.

I feel upset.....

I have no life and friends who care......

I have gone through a lot. In fact in 3 years i have been in 5 different schools.

I graduated from elementry, then in 6th grade i went to a different school (Because my school only went up to 5th grade)

Then halfway through the year i moved.

I tried to go to a good school which was only 10 years old (Younger than me!), but they had no space and i had to go to this other one only for 6th grade.

Then in 7th grade i went to the school and they kick me out the first month there. I tried going back to the other school but they wouldn't let me because they had no space.

Now i go to a school which is about 5 miles away and every time i come back from school i am WAY tired.

Other than that, in those schools i have made friends but with all these changes i barely keep up with them.

Everyday around 5:00-8:00 i have an empty feeling in my body..... I feel as if all the happiness in my body fell down to the darkest of trenches, and all the sorrow built up in me.

The only thing i do almost all day is be with my family.

I live in the hoods of New York.

People my age has started dating and i havent.

I know my parents wont let me and along with that i am ugly as hell. Nobody would every have a crush on me and i have never had a crush on anyone.

Actually boys my age are getting head (If you know what that means)

Then at the end of the day i relax and read a book and study for the SHSAT's.

While listening to the best song eva which is : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNWBqSBrY%E2%80%A6

I feel like i have no life and then today i realize my brother is the complete opposite. Gets girls and is ghetto. Basically my closest friends are his friends, that hang out with me sometimes (Not a lot after i moved)

So what should i do to prevent this empty feeling? I get it almost everyday and it just happens.

Thank you and happy new year, Martin Luther King day, NFL Championship week, and everyone enjoy your life because it is might as well be better than mine. Just keep Tebowing for happiness like me and hopefully it will come. If you have no hope just hope for more hope and use that new hope for what you need, and i have much more blessing i wish to offer you but i have to sleep soon.

Good Night and Giants for the super bowl!

I feel upset.....

I have no life and friends who care......

I have gone through a lot. In fact in 3 years i have been in 5 different schools.

I graduated from elementry, then in 6th grade i went to a different school (Because my school only went up to 5th grade)

Then halfway through the year i moved.

I tried to go to a good school which was only 10 years old (Younger than me!), but they had no space and i had to go to this other one only for 6th grade.

Then in 7th grade i went to the school and they kick me out the first month there. I tried going back to the other school but they wouldn't let me because they had no space.

Now i go to a school which is about 5 miles away and every time i come back from school i am WAY tired.

Other than that, in those schools i have made friends but with all these changes i barely keep up with them.

Everyday around 5:00-8:00 i have an empty feeling in my body..... I feel as if all the happiness in my body fell down to the darkest of trenches, and all the sorrow built up in me.

The only thing i do almost all day is be with my family.

I live in the hoods of New York.

People my age has started dating and i havent.

I know my parents wont let me and along with that i am ugly as hell. Nobody would every have a crush on me and i have never had a crush on anyone.

Actually boys my age are getting head (If you know what that means)

Then at the end of the day i relax and read a book and study for the SHSAT's.

While listening to the best song eva which is : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNWBqSBrYmw

I feel like i have no life and then today i realize my brother is the complete opposite. Gets girls and is ghetto. Basically my closest friends are his friends, that hang out with me sometimes (Not a lot after i moved)

So what should i do to prevent this empty feeling? I get it almost everyday and it just happens.

Thank you and happy new year, Martin Luther King day, NFL Championship week, and everyone enjoy your life because it is might as well be better than mine. Just keep Tebowing for happiness like me and hopefully it will come. If you have no hope just hope for more hope and use that new hope for what you need, and i have much more blessing i wish to offer you but i have to sleep soon.

Good Night and Giants for the super bowl!

She moved to Pennsylvania and i never told her how i felt. I lost a bet and i have to tell her through FB.

The thing is, im nervous and dont know what to say.

Anybody have any suggestions

Here is what i have:

Hey :D remember me? I was in your class in 127. Hows it been? i heard you moved to Pennsylvania, hows it there? Go to a good school, i dont go to 127 anymore but i wish i was there......i need to tell you something BTW......when we were going to school together...i kinda...had a crush on you. Im serious. I loved how you are so cute, and no only that you were so sweet and the type of girl i would see in my dreams.....and i spent so much time admiring you from afar, i forgot to say anything....so can we please keep this between us? Please just....dont tell anyone or something i just said this to get the regret out of my body......

The following formulas are given

F

21 minus F

2F

2F minus 3

2F plus 4

If all of these numbers add up to 57, what does F equal?

i tried 7 but it turns out to be 64

tried 5 but it turns out to be 52

so it must be 6

but when i did 6 it ended up to be 58??

does anyone know the answer

What should i do.

Should i remind you ive done this before

Should i tell you how much fun we had

Should i tell you i am not a role model

Should i accept my role, as a villein

Maybe i should just disappear

Should i stop listening to my friends,they're my friends

Should i try acting

Should i read you a poem

Should i be what you want me to be?

what should i do, I kinda like this girl but now i got kicked out of the school we go to, i don't know what school to go to next,but i know i wont get the chance to ask her out

What should i do.

Should i remind you ive done this before

Should i tell you how much fun we had

Should i tell you i am not a role model

Should i accept my role, as a villein

Maybe i should just disappear

Should i stop listening to my friends,they're my friends

Should i try acting

Should i read you a poem

Should i be what you want me to be?

i just do not like this guy at school

he is just like me, he is smart,cute and cool,but i do not like him for some reason.Maybe its because he is too much like me.Also i just met him and moved to his neighborhood and he is the me of that hood?

He talks to this girl that i talk to too but i kinda like her and trust me i am not jealous i never get jealous

So why do i hate him?

my class is using microsoft word and using document and we are putting pictures about our life on it

the teacher said he wants a creative title

anyone know a good title?

lately a girl in my class (we just met) has been starting conversations with me out of nowhere

we sit next to each other a lot because the teacher makes us sit in alphabetical order

i just leave her alone,i don't talk to her a lot but lately she had been talking to me

the other day she spoke to me but i didn't hear

and then her friend said "you must feel rejected cuz he ignored you"

i asked her what she said to me and we did speak

she is the type of girl that has lots of attention but is quiet most of the time

it was her birthday today and i said happy birthday

what is she doing?

OK so at school this happened

my teacher assigned the class some seats and i sat next to this girl and her friend

that girl asked me a question but i didnt hear

then i heard her friend saying "you must feel rejected because he ignored you" to her

then i asked her what she said and i answered her question.

OK so what does this mean. I hardly know her i just met her and we never spoke to each other once

She said rejected so did she wanna actually ask me out or something?

i wanna cry but my parents would yell at me and say

crying is for ladies and such things

is it bad that im holding my tears

i wanna cry because i cleared my school bag and found all my old things from my old school and it brought memories

can you help thanks

i had a dream where it was the first day of school

i went by school bus and then we came to school and immediately i befriended

a girl we seemed into the same things

and we just smiled at each other?

then one of those people who flirt with every cute girl came and flirted with her

she rejected him then looked at me smiling

then the dream ended

school is coming soon in real life too, so what does this mean?

i feel like sometimes im good at nothing

i mean i could do things but like no one thanks me for any work or something

i get a decent average on my report card (i am in 7th grade)

i am great at math but this year i have done worse than any other year

i feel depressed a lot

i am OK at sports when i play with some of my classmates i am like the 3rd one to get picked

well OK sports but i don't wanna be a football player or anything i wanna be a doctor

i wanna be a doctor because my parents want me to and i like helping people

but when i help someone a few minutes later something bad happens later

am i accident prone but i havent noticed this for the last 10 years

is this a coincidence or hormones or something

do you have any tips for preparing for becoming a doctor or anything

i had a dream where me and my crush were playing in recess

we do that sometimes

but in this dream she got hurt and later somewhat recovered but she was still hurt

then we went to class and she told me she had a crush on me

then it ended

this happened 2 years ago

after that dream me and her played in recess but not as much as before

at the end of the year trip she found out i liked her but she was dating someone else

after that we never spoke-well we did but never alone

i realized my brother has like like 50 friends that will be there for him when he needs them but i have only idk like 0

do not get me wrong i have friends but there not really gonna be there for me

i am in 7th grade

i just came to a new neighborhood

i met and made friends with like 5 people

but they wont be there for me when i really need to

yesterday i cried and cried myself to sleep because of this help me :(

even my little sister who is 5 and shy has like 5 friends who will be there

yesterday was a holiday and i was with my brother for a lot of his time and with his friends and at that time i noticed

Please help or is this normal for a 12 year old